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Monday, August 27, 2012

Ph0t0s~~ 28 jul 12!!

Stayed home and made a yukata for kamikawa using jeans material~

And today did a Mini costest for oct shoot...


My wkends...shag max!!!!

Yep~
sat went natsu matsuri wif frens, and due to the fact that i'm in yukata and using iphone (meaning i'm nowhere to hide my phone as it's too big), i didnt have any photos avail...
Was kinda cool~
and i missed the bon odori!!!! sadded.....

Anyways, the 4 pix are for sun's event at nee ann poly....wanted to stay for the after party, but decided not to due to #1, i was SUPER hungry cuz last meal was my breakfast which was like 11+ am...and after party starts at 7pm....
#2, i was ALL ALONE!!!! Yep, no one accompany me, thus rather not stay cuz not fun to dance alone, not like it's clubbing or my goth events...those i can go all by myself....

Anyways...gotta focus more on work now...shag max after rushing those yukata out..am personally very unhappy wif the quality....must be possessed, if not, i wonder y did i agree to help tailor those!!!

Thursday, August 2, 2012

burnout, yet again

shallow breaths / breathlessness..
gastric / stomach constantly twitching or cramping, or at times, both happening together..
light headed / dizzy spells..
constant headache...oh, and on&off fever every now and then......

guess recent stress has been giving me some problems yet again....thx to the useless helper who WAS suppose to be my assistance....and ended up doin nothing but adding my workload since few mths back till now....

wad can i do? world's unfair....she's slim and have a obviously better skin than me....guess that's all that counts yea? and she is a darn gd actress.....
while i cant be bothered to pretend, thus, i can gain no pity and always have to be the one who gets blame and carry all the load over on my shoulder.......

my gastric has been affecting my appetite, which in-turn, worsen gastric condition (and the cycles continues)....well, guess this is such the work of fate and destiny....
such is my fate, to carry upon me the bad karmas even when i might not be deserving it, it somehow became natural......