feeling... ...strange... ...

should have gotten over tat person for juz over a mth..but recently i'm starting to miss M.A. again..it may be the sunday nites which cause me to feel this way..*sigh*..sudden feel so lonely and like wanna get myself a bf or something..;p
... ...than again...like as if ANYONE would wanna b my bf even if i'm really looking for one..
sometimes i wonder if karma is 'you rip wad you sow' or bad karma will befall even if it's for something your family or blood related ppl have done..
cuz it juz seems like no matter how i try..i can never find happiness which is mine to hold..
i'll juz have to deal wif it as it is..loneliness is my companion, darkness is all i have to hold..
and in the cold dark abyss is where i shall call home..
hmmm..shall post a poem later on kaymatsu.soulpoetry later.. ...
juz have the urge to disappear somewhere..shall stay there till my dark self goes into a deep sleep.. ... ... ...

crazy over Taiko..!!!

my 1st natsumatsuri exp~

went for my 1st ever natsu matsuri (summer festival) on sat, 22/08/09, and it was not too bad despite havin to wait SUPER long to get in..><

but hey..the whole exp was gd and i enjoyed myself so no compliants frm me..^^

anyways..it's oso da 1st time i so willingly waited for soo long for something (did make noise la..but juuz a little bit only..^^)

sure to go for it again next year..XD

outing with my buddy..^^

volunteered to help out at da lounge on thur to pay back hours which i owe da company..but met up wif soffian earlier in da afternoon and we went walking ard somewhere near my work place..^^
had lots of fun, juz tat gd times dun last..it was soon when have to go off to work..lucky i did enjoy myself b4 work starts as something happened (i should say someone did something) which kinda upset me lah..juz dun understand wad they are thinking sometimes.. not feeling can join da gang for nite drinking session till quite late but cant even work for an hour on thur..best of all..he didn't inform anyone when he disappeared..didn't even sign out..mayb he really sick till gonna faint, or mayb he juz wanna 'cheat' his work hour..either way..i can't b bothered tat much anymore oso.. juz do my best even if da whole lot of ppl keep hintiing tat i'm not gd enough.. WHO ARE THEY TO JUDGE..!!!!! anyways..lots of luv to soffian, thanks for accompaning me even for tat short while..hope we can all go out and have fun for da whole entire day soon next mth..^^

Anime..!!!!!

currently catching two anime at da moment.. "jigouku shojou: futakomori" & "darker than black"..
both are not bad..only prob was tat they take super long time to load and i have to refresh da server qiute afew times b4 i can watch my anime in peace.. .. -.-"'
*sigh*..ok..think i shall wait a little longer..if still cannot watch than i shall go to bed 1st than try again when i wake up..^^

*sigh* i shall confess something now. ...

WARNING!!! Those Who Hate Attention Seekers & Dun Belive In Split/Multi Personality Shit DO NOT READ!!!

rite..after having said tat..i shall confess (be it any1 wanna belive it or not)..

well..i don't really noe which's my case (split of multiple?) but it's something like tat..

some ppl might juz see it as more extreme cases of mood swings oso can..wadeva..

basically dere's da atitude bitch, yours truly writing this, who is VERY gd at driving ppl crazy and most certainly 200% confirm you it's not something any1 would like..

than dere's the 'cute' 1, who was at work for da past fews days instead of me so as not to get 'ourselves' fired so soon, she's basically more well known as the cat (neko) for she likes to take pics & do her famous cat pose.. ...-.-"'

and ya..even though we are of the same person, yet we lived a life of our own wif the very same life we share..contridicting??

that's juz me..alot of things about me juz simply don't make any senses..

think that's it for now.. super sleepy and later got work some more..

Oyasumi nasai..ZzzzzzzzzzzzzzZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzZzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

my IDIOT brother..><

i've been workin in nite life juz reaching 1 mth only and it seems he has forgotten i'm still aliive..
my mom cooked fish (my fav..^^) on sunday and left some in da fridge..
my bro jolly well went ahead and finished All 3 fishes this mornin...
I'VE NOT EVEN EATEN A SINGLE PIECE YET NOE..!!!!
like wad da *%#%&()*$#*$#$!@%#&^*&@#*(*&#$$%*&*....-.-"'

HIHI!!!!
BLEAHH