feeling... ...strange... ...

should have gotten over tat person for juz over a mth..but recently i'm starting to miss M.A. again..it may be the sunday nites which cause me to feel this way..*sigh*..sudden feel so lonely and like wanna get myself a bf or something..;p
... ...than again...like as if ANYONE would wanna b my bf even if i'm really looking for one..
sometimes i wonder if karma is 'you rip wad you sow' or bad karma will befall even if it's for something your family or blood related ppl have done..
cuz it juz seems like no matter how i try..i can never find happiness which is mine to hold..
i'll juz have to deal wif it as it is..loneliness is my companion, darkness is all i have to hold..
and in the cold dark abyss is where i shall call home..
hmmm..shall post a poem later on kaymatsu.soulpoetry later.. ...
juz have the urge to disappear somewhere..shall stay there till my dark self goes into a deep sleep.. ... ... ...