mayb i should get some help..

saw some "souvenirs" on my hand and knew something real bad must have happened @ work juz now..and i must have made quite a number of ppl unhappy..
it's like every wed there's a curse of me being super hyper, which in turn meaning my subconscious will be at it's weakest moment..and which ever side of my will become more extreme when triggred..and during these times i'm beyond the control of myself..all there is to make sure none of me do anything too stupid and regret later is the mere subconscious of my own stubborn self..the one who won't allow myself to faint even after overdosing on 16 relaxant tablet..but i wonder for how much longer can it hold on, preventing the other me frm hurting myself or others too badly..
mayb i should seek help..before the other me starts to destory all those things which are dear to me in Stereo..like how it destory some other stuff which are dear to me in the past..there are lots of things which are not known by many, for even when i talked abut those stuff, it would b in a joking manner..for i know that for a fact noones gonna understand wadever i'm saying if i were to say it seriously..furthur more..they may even think somethng else..
well..lets hope that it's really nothing serious and tat it's juz all n my head..