finally~
mon, which is tml, i'm gonna go get my colours done...even though not possible to finish EVERYthing in juz 1 day, but still, it's something..^^
but after tml's session, i may stop for ard 3mth b4 continuing it, as i need to save up for something else..;p
haha..XD

*sigh* ..... actually gonna do the colour for my tattoo later this afternoon... but it got postponed to next week cuz he's very sick (which i only found out on facebook, he didn't wanna tell me..-.-'")...
it's like this mth is really not my "tattoo" mth.... last week i'm suppose to get it done, but i was sick.. than this week, but he got sick....... i'm upset that i can't get it done, but more than that, like more upset y he can't even tell me that he wasn't feeling well...... and why he have to apologize so much for having to cancel the appointment.. it's not like it was canceled for no reason or that he forgot about my appointment and made other arrangements on the day itself.... *sigh*........ hope i'm not liking him as much as i do in the past..... for it HAS to fade........ in order for me to move on..... and not cause him trouble......... even though i still feels like he more or less have some feelings for me, if not he wouldn't say that he don't wanna lose me, that's why it's best that we remain as frens....... *sigh*....... think enough here..... if not this is gonna turn into a very emo posting again....
may he get well soon, not becuz i like him, but becuz i wanna get my tattoo done....... yes.... for i am not kind, but selfish and cruel..... yes.... that's how i should be...... so that he can stop feeling bad..... and mayb, so can i........

updates!!!!!!! (eventhough like got nothing much)..;p

ok....1st of all..to all those who have been viewing my blog...sorry for not updating for soooo soooooo long..=p

and than here's something some of you might think it's a good news....(only for those who know of the "him" i've waited for so many years (not really so many la...juz more than 2 years only)..
it appears that he have always knew about how i felt for him (guess i sucks at hiding my feelings eh..) (awkward~) and we sorta are juz frens now....even though he says that he treats me like a very good fren.....but i guess we are those kind of super awkward close/good fren as even casual frens can go out together once in a while for a bite or drink or movie...u get wad i mean lah....but it's kinda impossible for him to go out with me....at least his reason is that he's busy....*sigh*......

recently i've been emo-ing to the MAX too....almost got myself killed....but that's a different story all together..since i'm updating this blog now means that i'm not dead yet.....for those who wish for that to happen....i'm sorry to break your heart as i'm still alive and kicking ass....<3

anyways....updated my poetry blog oso...even though it's juz 1 poem only (sorry, kinda tired mentally)...
will try to update soon.......all those who stood by me till now....i luv & thank ya'all....<3