*sigh* ..... actually gonna do the colour for my tattoo later this afternoon... but it got postponed to next week cuz he's very sick (which i only found out on facebook, he didn't wanna tell me..-.-'")...
it's like this mth is really not my "tattoo" mth.... last week i'm suppose to get it done, but i was sick.. than this week, but he got sick....... i'm upset that i can't get it done, but more than that, like more upset y he can't even tell me that he wasn't feeling well...... and why he have to apologize so much for having to cancel the appointment.. it's not like it was canceled for no reason or that he forgot about my appointment and made other arrangements on the day itself.... *sigh*........ hope i'm not liking him as much as i do in the past..... for it HAS to fade........ in order for me to move on..... and not cause him trouble......... even though i still feels like he more or less have some feelings for me, if not he wouldn't say that he don't wanna lose me, that's why it's best that we remain as frens....... *sigh*....... think enough here..... if not this is gonna turn into a very emo posting again....
may he get well soon, not becuz i like him, but becuz i wanna get my tattoo done....... yes.... for i am not kind, but selfish and cruel..... yes.... that's how i should be...... so that he can stop feeling bad..... and mayb, so can i........