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suddenly feels like everything i do is wrong, no matter what they are, i'm always in the wrong....
it's not alrite for me to groove to the beats, while it's alrite for them to run ard playing catching....
i know that i'm not perfect, but it kinda sucks when ppl keep reminding me that i'll never be good enough.........if it's so.....i wonder if it's alrite for my heart to beat, for me to even breath......
maybe i'm juz wasting oxygen......maybe i should really stop holding onto those made up reasons to continue living..........it's so sad that i actually have more reasons why i should juz end my life than y i shouldn't........i really dont know anything anymore........or even what should i do from now on........
i wish somebody could help me, save me........but than again......who would bother........when they are all eagerly waiting for my death...............

emozzzzzzzz

something fucked up happen @ work juz now...
so much so tat i juz walked out even b4 my shift ends.....
i noe it's not rite...but it's better than staying there and risk sending some1 or myself to hospital...
lucky got my fren who happens to b online chatted wif me abit b4 she goes to bed....really felt alittle better after our short but sweet chat....and the cat whom i fell in luv wif was oso online.....and chatted wif him as well...and took my mind off things quite abit......

a house cat in luv wif a stray cat.....
guess i'll have to treasure every moment i have wif him...

whole body is aching.....!!!!!!!!!!
i guess 4 rounds is alittle too much for me....(0ops)
sigh.....is aching so badly tat i dun really feel like going to work........;p

nevertheless...i'll still be goin.....after the talk wif my manager on fri nite, i can't possibly let them worry me tat much now, can i~ xD

juz hope tat the aching will stop soon enough....but i dun wish tat mark to fade tat soon....;p
heeeheeee~

sweet~

okies~

UPDATES !!! UPDATES !!!
(and i dun think this post's gonna be my usual emo shits ya..;p)

1st..lets start off frm fri, as in wad happened @ work......hmmmm....haha....it was not tat busy but funny things still will happen one....
for this case...i think it's cuz the bouncers toooooo free, than the whole matter got blown up.....
as for the details.....i shall not post it here.....too long a story to be typed out....xD

sat i was on leave, cuz i wanna go for the monthly SDAM nite, and even though it was one of those quiet nites (almost everyone had too much in their system, and i was bloody hell having gastric), i had a great time......guess it was the magic of the ppl whom u hang ard wif.....and something very awkward happen after the nite ended.......a guy whom i've only juz met tells me tat he likes me..."!?"
he'll be a gd fren, but erm......"u like me..????" was like in my head constantly, and i'm trying hard not to feel offended and to get pissed off at him for tat.....some ppl who knows me long enough will know tat i dun like guys comin up to me telling me tat they like me, when it's only the 1st time we met each other.....and very often......i'll get mad at them and make sure they see my flaws which makes me a hard to get along person.....^^
but this guy can tell tat he means no harm, and is juz drunk (even if it's juz a little).......so.....aiya let him go lah.....juz hopes tat he will forget everything when he sober up..........

and after everything.......hmmmm.....erm........
i'll juz say tat i had the most wonderful and lovely morning b4 i went home~ ^^
details on wad happened is only reserved for my close frens..;p

side note.......now i've become a songwriter..!!!
no la....not really tat pro...
started writing songs for my fren's band think last week.....and juz done writing the 1st song..
so now waiting for my fren to finish the music and shall hear it out.....
(wonder how my 1st song will sound like..ps...it's a love song~) ^^