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suddenly feels like everything i do is wrong, no matter what they are, i'm always in the wrong....
it's not alrite for me to groove to the beats, while it's alrite for them to run ard playing catching....
i know that i'm not perfect, but it kinda sucks when ppl keep reminding me that i'll never be good enough.........if it's so.....i wonder if it's alrite for my heart to beat, for me to even breath......
maybe i'm juz wasting oxygen......maybe i should really stop holding onto those made up reasons to continue living..........it's so sad that i actually have more reasons why i should juz end my life than y i shouldn't........i really dont know anything anymore........or even what should i do from now on........
i wish somebody could help me, save me........but than again......who would bother........when they are all eagerly waiting for my death...............