oh ya, sun ard afternoon than reached home, and guess wad, i had another wierd dream... .... ..
damn! when i think about the dream, i feel so awkward ard my fren!!! =.=
i dreamt thati i went to hold his hand while we were shopping ard town, and he reaction was, swipe my hand away as though he's very irritated and annoyed by that action.... ... ...mayb i've been thinking too much....
cuz 1st, even though i've been thinking about doin so, BUT, every time we go out, i wont dare to hold his hands!!! lols~ i'm a coward, but i'm juz not ready yet, as in, wad if he really dun like me, and if i really go hold his hands, wad if he gets really annoyed?? i noe i'm thinking too much, but, i juz dun wanna lose him..i'm selfish and insercure when it comes to things related to him i noe...but, i'm trying to improve on the 'selfish' part, as in, he dun belong to me alone...
about the insecure part, i have no idea how the hell to improve on that...guess the only way is to.. ...idk, let nature takes it's course?? o.O