Though I've always known that humans are not meant to be trusted. But carelessly I've let my guard down, and how careless of me to grown quite attached to some. After all the trouble you went through, to send me comfort in forms of my own kind, only for me to get too close and hurt myself even more by my actions.
How I wished, and how I prayed, for you to come take me away, before my soul is damned into oblivion. How I've hated the world I'm in, filled with nothing but lies and deceit. With the veil of false justice and fake kindness, put up by those self-righteous people. How I've hated the world that I lived in, but even more so, the Me who's living in it.
Plaster on a fake smile every single day, so that people will not bother me by pretending to care if I'm alright. When kindness and loyal are absolutely useless, those are the only things I have. Try as I may, to hide away from the world, not to trust, not to feel, not to be attached to anything or anyone here. But weak and weary is my soul, far too tired to keep the wall up for long, I shall destroy everything with my very hands. And can only hope you'll forgive me after all the damage has been done.
O death, sweet death, who has been by my side for so long. The violent end which you wish to keep me away from, I cannot even bare to imagine your grief if you were to know that it is I who brought it upon myself in the end.
For i could not wait for you to come for my soul, no I can't bare to wait that long. I've grown tired as each days goes by. My strength weakened, my will dissolving into nothingness. My life, barely hanging, a single strand of silk around my neck.
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