Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Hai~
moshi moshi~
Yui desu~
Mayb the one that guys like is actually onee-sama desu...she is the independent, non-clingy, non-annoying type...while I'm the total opposite..>_<
Mayb should revert things back to how it used to be...back to the days whereby I belong solely to her....
I kept saying that I wanna date, at least once, in my lifetime....mayb one fine day, after I forget about all these, I shall go on a date wif my onee-sama~~ ^^
ありがとうケイお姉様~ ^^
moshi moshi~
Yui desu~
Mayb the one that guys like is actually onee-sama desu...she is the independent, non-clingy, non-annoying type...while I'm the total opposite..>_<
Mayb should revert things back to how it used to be...back to the days whereby I belong solely to her....
I kept saying that I wanna date, at least once, in my lifetime....mayb one fine day, after I forget about all these, I shall go on a date wif my onee-sama~~ ^^
ありがとうケイお姉様~ ^^
Monday, June 18, 2012
hai!!!
yui desu~~ ^^
onee-sama wanted me to start stating names when we blog using her blog...(cuz we are all too lazy to create our own~ xp)
anyways~ even though she agreed to let me like the guy i had a crush on...
but she tend to get angry when i starts to emo cuz i miss him too much...
and she dun trust that guy...(she dun trust MOST guys actually...>_<)
sooo...dunno wad should i do....cuz i'm kinda feeling left out these days as well...
me and him dun share much mutual frens, even those mutual frens, none of them know wad's goin on...and he's like always not free...his wkends are for his frens or for work..it's sweet of him to come have dinner wif me when ever he ends work early...but i'm starting to want more.....
NYAAA!!!!! me dun like this feelings!!!! it's like me is becoming selfish...dun like!!!
yui desu~~ ^^
onee-sama wanted me to start stating names when we blog using her blog...(cuz we are all too lazy to create our own~ xp)
anyways~ even though she agreed to let me like the guy i had a crush on...
but she tend to get angry when i starts to emo cuz i miss him too much...
and she dun trust that guy...(she dun trust MOST guys actually...>_<)
sooo...dunno wad should i do....cuz i'm kinda feeling left out these days as well...
me and him dun share much mutual frens, even those mutual frens, none of them know wad's goin on...and he's like always not free...his wkends are for his frens or for work..it's sweet of him to come have dinner wif me when ever he ends work early...but i'm starting to want more.....
NYAAA!!!!! me dun like this feelings!!!! it's like me is becoming selfish...dun like!!!
Thursday, June 14, 2012
Nya!!!!
She finally agreed to not stop me frm liking that guy, but now, it seems he became uninterested in me already!!!
>_<
But sometimes I wonder....those who tell me they like me, which me are they referring to????
Wonder if it's the strong willed independent side or is it this annoying cat...hmmmmmm....
I guess no one will ever knows...cuz this is something no one would ever believe in....
Who would have thought that the mood swings are sometimes juz the work if another split self~? ^^
Guess I annoyed her too much till she agreed to not interfere..but wad if the one he liked was her instead of me??? O.O
Haha~ guess she'll juz say she told me so~ even knowing she meant well, cuz when I get hurt, it's the same for her as well...guess tat's y she tend to be slightly over protective of me~
Let's hope that even if I do get hurt again this time, at least I won't worry her so much~ ^^
But it's kinda hard to hide things frm her when we are actually sharing the same mind same body an everything... >,<
Nya!! Haha!!!
Blogging when I'm suppose to be working!!! Gtg~ xp
>_<
But sometimes I wonder....those who tell me they like me, which me are they referring to????
Wonder if it's the strong willed independent side or is it this annoying cat...hmmmmmm....
I guess no one will ever knows...cuz this is something no one would ever believe in....
Who would have thought that the mood swings are sometimes juz the work if another split self~? ^^
Guess I annoyed her too much till she agreed to not interfere..but wad if the one he liked was her instead of me??? O.O
Haha~ guess she'll juz say she told me so~ even knowing she meant well, cuz when I get hurt, it's the same for her as well...guess tat's y she tend to be slightly over protective of me~
Let's hope that even if I do get hurt again this time, at least I won't worry her so much~ ^^
But it's kinda hard to hide things frm her when we are actually sharing the same mind same body an everything... >,<
Nya!! Haha!!!
Blogging when I'm suppose to be working!!! Gtg~ xp
Monday, June 11, 2012
updated my DA~!!
http://kuro-laviakay.deviantart.com/
having a hell of headaches these days, and i should be helping my fren to sew a dress for her up coming shoot (yep, while i know nuts about dressmaking)
http://kuro-laviakay.deviantart.com/
having a hell of headaches these days, and i should be helping my fren to sew a dress for her up coming shoot (yep, while i know nuts about dressmaking)
Monday, May 28, 2012
game? i'm not interested~~ ^^
yep~~
if liking someone, and being in a relationship is nothing but a game to anyone, i'm sorry, can u get lost???
yep~~ i'm totally not interested in flings and games, say i'm not sporting enough, say i'm not game enough, i dun care....
even if i once had a crush on u, tat's all in the past now~~ ^^
after the viet guy incident, i've once again learnt NOT to trust my heart, thus, even wif a crush, i kinda able to logically analyses and very soon after, crush no more!!!
and having someone tell me they like me is like "ok, thx..and??" kinda thing now....
having toooooooooooo many guys liking me for all the wrong reasons....guess wad? tat's not called like, tat's "LUST"...
if i'm the same me, BUT w/o the Double D, would u still like me the same~?
pls, i'm kind, i'm sweet, if u like me for those reasons only, i'm not the gal for u...
like me even when i'm being mean and cranky, only than, u're worthy of my sweet and gentle side~
if liking someone, and being in a relationship is nothing but a game to anyone, i'm sorry, can u get lost???
yep~~ i'm totally not interested in flings and games, say i'm not sporting enough, say i'm not game enough, i dun care....
even if i once had a crush on u, tat's all in the past now~~ ^^
after the viet guy incident, i've once again learnt NOT to trust my heart, thus, even wif a crush, i kinda able to logically analyses and very soon after, crush no more!!!
and having someone tell me they like me is like "ok, thx..and??" kinda thing now....
having toooooooooooo many guys liking me for all the wrong reasons....guess wad? tat's not called like, tat's "LUST"...
if i'm the same me, BUT w/o the Double D, would u still like me the same~?
pls, i'm kind, i'm sweet, if u like me for those reasons only, i'm not the gal for u...
like me even when i'm being mean and cranky, only than, u're worthy of my sweet and gentle side~
Wednesday, May 23, 2012
There has been a situation!!!
A guy whom a gal used to have a crush on, told her tat if nobody wants her he'll be her bf....
The problem here is, she have finally managed to convince herself to believe that he'll never like her as more than a fren...and suddenly this happens....
Not knowing how or wad to do, she decided to take it is juz a joke...but then again, the guy told her after tat at nothing he said was meant to be a joke...so, basically the gal is stuck not knowing was to do, or even was to believe..and ended up she doesn't know how to even talk to tat guy anymore, cuz well, she still likes him..
And now, she is made to believe tat she has made him angry cuz she said she'll take tat as a joke...
A guy whom a gal used to have a crush on, told her tat if nobody wants her he'll be her bf....
The problem here is, she have finally managed to convince herself to believe that he'll never like her as more than a fren...and suddenly this happens....
Not knowing how or wad to do, she decided to take it is juz a joke...but then again, the guy told her after tat at nothing he said was meant to be a joke...so, basically the gal is stuck not knowing was to do, or even was to believe..and ended up she doesn't know how to even talk to tat guy anymore, cuz well, she still likes him..
And now, she is made to believe tat she has made him angry cuz she said she'll take tat as a joke...
Thursday, May 17, 2012
i'm falling really sick AGAIN!!!!!!
think i had a high fever lastnite, cuz i was mweeping and moaning so loud till i woke myself up ard 3am......and after tat, it's on and off, not much sleep....
no body's aching all over, feeling really unwell, yet, i'm in the office..cuz i see no point seeing a doc when i already have the meds, and somemore, i dun wanna be spending too much on doc for these few mths....
22 more days to my shoot....hope i'll recover by then...
think i had a high fever lastnite, cuz i was mweeping and moaning so loud till i woke myself up ard 3am......and after tat, it's on and off, not much sleep....
no body's aching all over, feeling really unwell, yet, i'm in the office..cuz i see no point seeing a doc when i already have the meds, and somemore, i dun wanna be spending too much on doc for these few mths....
22 more days to my shoot....hope i'll recover by then...
Sunday, May 13, 2012
Planning FAILED
Yea...I totally failed in planning for today's shoot...end up, TOTAL FAILURE!!!!!
Not only I made the three if them hike the muddy path, which some fall over few times, we end up not having any shoot at all...at least Arella have quite a few photos taken....
And I manage to sprain my ankle, which, I can only say serve me right..
My only photos are camwhore pic frm my phone, which, it's also a lot lesser than usual camwhore session...for totally no mood...
Not only I made the three if them hike the muddy path, which some fall over few times, we end up not having any shoot at all...at least Arella have quite a few photos taken....
And I manage to sprain my ankle, which, I can only say serve me right..
My only photos are camwhore pic frm my phone, which, it's also a lot lesser than usual camwhore session...for totally no mood...
Wednesday, May 9, 2012
I tried, I did, but sometimes somethings trying juz ain't enough
Sigh...yea, I tried to be normal, tried to be more of a social person..tried to be less angry, tried to love, tried to forget, tried to live life as supposed to be....
Tried to love, and failed badly, for it isn't in my nature to do so, which made me not know how to love...and I end up pushing those ppl even further away frm me...
Tried to be normal...but juz as a crazy person can never fully be normal, I can't either...when I'm ill, when I get too pissed off as something, I tend to revisit old ways...be it force vomit, or scratch till I almost tear my skin, till it almost bleed, or simply starve myself for no reason other than bcuz I'm angry...
And even though knowing I HAVE to talk to someone, but it seems I have no one I talk to....they are juz kids, who have their own troubles, and haven't even been through even half of was I had, so to talk to them about these is like talking einstein since to Adam and eve...they would not understand 90% of was I'm saying, and such topics are boring to even listen to...
So, I can only write it out here....
I wouldn't even post such thing here, unless I have to....and I'm doin so now is bcuz I feel like if I dun let some of the things out, i'll end up scaring myself again....and currently, there is nothing or me to hold on to, not even false hopes...
Tried to love, and failed badly, for it isn't in my nature to do so, which made me not know how to love...and I end up pushing those ppl even further away frm me...
Tried to be normal...but juz as a crazy person can never fully be normal, I can't either...when I'm ill, when I get too pissed off as something, I tend to revisit old ways...be it force vomit, or scratch till I almost tear my skin, till it almost bleed, or simply starve myself for no reason other than bcuz I'm angry...
And even though knowing I HAVE to talk to someone, but it seems I have no one I talk to....they are juz kids, who have their own troubles, and haven't even been through even half of was I had, so to talk to them about these is like talking einstein since to Adam and eve...they would not understand 90% of was I'm saying, and such topics are boring to even listen to...
So, I can only write it out here....
I wouldn't even post such thing here, unless I have to....and I'm doin so now is bcuz I feel like if I dun let some of the things out, i'll end up scaring myself again....and currently, there is nothing or me to hold on to, not even false hopes...
Tuesday, May 8, 2012
ok, since my blog has been kinda dead, here's some photos~~
those by alan were taken sometime back, those Midnight shoot ones were taken on 5 May 2012, or 6 May 2012 super early...started shooting ard 11pm on the 5th, ended shoot at 6am on the 6th~~
those by alan were taken sometime back, those Midnight shoot ones were taken on 5 May 2012, or 6 May 2012 super early...started shooting ard 11pm on the 5th, ended shoot at 6am on the 6th~~
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| shoot at a bridge at Fort Siloso, Sentosa photo by Alan |
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| Pool test shoot at TBC, Sentosa photo by Alan |
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| midnight shoot at NYC bus, Somerset photo by Foo Yoong Yih |
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| midnight shoot at NYC bus, Somerset photo by Foo Yoong Yih |
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| midnight shoot at NYC bus, Somerset photo by Foo Yoong Yih |
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| midnight shoot at NYC bus, Somerset photo by Foo Yoong Yih |
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| midnight shoot at ION, Orchard photo by Foo Yoong Yih |
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
The GazettE - The Social Riot Machines (STANDING LIVE TOUR)
i'm listening to the Gazette since yesterday!!!!
and today was like the whole day, spamming their video on youtube~~
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
X JAPAN in hide memorial summit [Full]
listing to this right now, and starting from the song "without you" onward, i'm trying hard not to cry....
Friday, April 20, 2012
Stuff made for hubby~~~
Today on MC, so decided to bring out my sewing machine and try to figure it out this time round...
And guess wad, I manage to make a pair of shorts and a turtle neck top for hubby!!!!!
Now he looks so casual~~ like me when I'm at home~!!! ^^
And guess wad, I manage to make a pair of shorts and a turtle neck top for hubby!!!!!
Now he looks so casual~~ like me when I'm at home~!!! ^^
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| hubby kamikawa in the shorts and the top (also my 1st time making top)~ looking really casual~ and he only wants his TV~~ |
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| 1st pair of shorts!!! used a sewing machine for this |
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| the very 1st pair of jeans i made for him!! (hand sewn) |
Thursday, April 19, 2012
http://parisdia.blogspot.com/2012/04/sentosa-photo-shoot.html
link to a fren's blog~~
she's a photog as well, and here are the photos from her camera, and all are un-edited~~
have fun looking through unglam-ness, careful not to let your eye burn~~ ^^
link to a fren's blog~~
she's a photog as well, and here are the photos from her camera, and all are un-edited~~
have fun looking through unglam-ness, careful not to let your eye burn~~ ^^
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
Dreamenddischarger
saw my fren posted this on his fb, figures it's nice and simply have to share it~~
http://fenestra-works.deviantart.com/
http://kelvinsiau.deviantart.com/
these are the 2 photogs who i've been shooting wif (that i've found their D.A, shall go stalk others for their D.A ac as well~~)
do check it out ^^
and here's mine~~ it's kinda in a mess, as i don't really know where to put which photos, and nothing much there yet...waiting for more photos to come in so i can post it up on DA~~ xDD
for ppl who dropby my DA, feel free to comment, i would love to improve more on my poses, expressions etc...
http://kelvinsiau.deviantart.com/
these are the 2 photogs who i've been shooting wif (that i've found their D.A, shall go stalk others for their D.A ac as well~~)
do check it out ^^
and here's mine~~ it's kinda in a mess, as i don't really know where to put which photos, and nothing much there yet...waiting for more photos to come in so i can post it up on DA~~ xDD
for ppl who dropby my DA, feel free to comment, i would love to improve more on my poses, expressions etc...
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