well...think it's gonna be quie enough of emo BS frm me....as i've sort things out wif tat guy already....so now we are still frens, abit more, buddies maybe, but hell......at least now tat we've both straighten things out, he can concentrate fully on his gf, and me on me life....he still cares about me, and it's a gd thing (i guess).......

aaanyyyywaayyysssss......made some new plans.....since fate has it planed tat i am to be alone, and that my only soulmate would be the spirit who has been watching over me so lovingly for so long....i shall devote myself to him and him alone.....and 2ndly.....i plan on compiling some of my poems into a book.....decided on the title already.....as for the book cover....would like to ask my tattooist for the favour.....and if he agrees to, maybe could ask him to draw some other artwork fitting of the theme of my poems to be included in the book as well...^^
most likely will include afew other poem by my frens as well....got request and approval from 1person frm my workplace to include hers already....!! XD

oh ya....did i mention tat tat guy write poetry as well..??? now tat i have, might as well add in tat NOONE has ever read his poem...he didn't allow anyone to do so till now....and he actually says tat would let me read them one day when he get the chance...WOW!!! (i guess)
but i dun see tat chance comin anytime soon..seein tat his gf is kinda strict wif him...(and note tat "kinda" is a real under-statment here)......soooooo....ya....as he likes to say...."see how?"...
i shall use his words here, but wif my touch to it.."see how lah hor...." ;p

yep yep.....so now tat things are settled.....it's about time tat emo-drama-mama step down....and the "me" who has been drown all those times has come back.....gladly and sadly......cuz da bitch which most ppl hated so much will be set free as welll.....but hey! who cares rite....now it's 'as long as i'm happy, hell care wad others think..oh wait! hell dun care about wad others thinks....HELL IS ON MY SIDE!!!!" XDD
feels so gd when u have the whole of hell as your lover rite....hmmm....dun think anyone would understand....for it has not given this offer to anyone....or maybe it has.....but no one dared to take on his offer...(poor hell...so misunderstood)......guess tat's all for now......
Cheers!! to my new friendship wif my EX-fwb.....and to my new relationship wif hell and death itself~~~

it would seems that things between me and him are over.....would seem to be that way....juz hope that he won't contact me suddenly when he's havin some trouble wif his gf........i plan to let him go....juz remaining as frens will do.....since his gf won't allow him to have non bloodrelated "sisters"....which equals to, i won't be able to go save him next time he get drunk from now onwards.....

New look, New state of mind, New view on life, New goals to aim for ~ (~.^)

HAIZ```` :'(

everything was fine, and i was even suppose to overnite @ his place frm sun-wed....but than fri nite came and we're suppose to meet after the wedding dinner he's attending ends....nxt thing i knew when i've reached orchard was a call frm him, and is sounded like he's throwing up in a toilet.....
and when i call back there's no respond at all....waited for more than 2hours still no respond from him...
but i was quite lucky (or mayb unlucky), some1 who worked @ the hotel nearby saw that i looked as though waiting for some1....so he came up to me and asked me wad's wrong...
so after telling him the whole situation, he told me the hotel he worked got wedding function juz now, and offered to bring me there to help look for my fren..(aww, so kind of him.....but i was so worried till i actually forgot to ask for his name....only remembered he stayed in AMK..-.-)..
true enough, found him laying in the 2nd floor toilet, outside where the wedding is held...think i made a huge mistake here.....i SHOULD NOT HAVE decided to send him back home....instead, should have juz left him there, and let his GUY frens send him back or something....than his gf wouldn't have thought tat he was cheating on her, wouldn't have left him, and he in turn wouldn't have abandon me.......
it was all my fault and i have no one else to blame......wad i thought was gd ended up to to pure evil & selfish intentions maybe....for it might have been perceived tat way by others...
maybe i'll never ever live up to anyone's expectations, thus destined to be abandon and thrown aside time & time again......
haiz.....how i wish DEATH would come and blow his kisses upon me now.....and take me with him back into the arms of the sinful abyss...