my right wrist is hurting again!!!!
damn.....hate the sharp pains which comes w/o warnings!!!
dunno if it's cuz i've been using the mouse and typing w/o a wrist rest, or is it cuz i've been making the pouch.. ... ....or mayb it's juz an old injury acting up??
hmmmm.....regardless, stilll doesn't change the fact that i hate the sharp pain which comes un-announced!! -____-'''

*yawn*
i'm sooooo sleepy!!!!!!!!!

sigh, my 1st call for today was like 30min ago!! after tat, stonning till now... .. ....
later boss comes back frm HQ will have new things to do le~~ ^^

but cannot slack tooooo long, if not, my fren who's joining us soon wont have much thing to do~ ;p
wondering when my boss's gonna call him asking him to come for 'interview' ... o.O
lols~
kinda afraid to work wif him.. ... .....after seeing his CV (i noe i'm not suppose to, but can't help but to take a tiny peek).. .. .....O.O .. .. ......... -_____-
i feel soooo tiny now.. ... ......and all the more i dun feel up to his lvl.... :'(

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!

now i feel so like a tiny tiny little thingy...... :(

lalalalalala~
photos taken frm me phone all uploaded to fb!!! ^^
including those camwhore pic frm the loli shoot~~ (they dun upload nvm, lucky i camwhore abit already~~ if not for my batt running low, i would've taken more pics~ )

need to repair my phone's screen soon, since i'm gonna wait till the broadband's contract over, thn see wad line i wanna sign... ... ..-_-

i dunno wad can i do...i'm feeling uneasy in my very own house...when i'm alone, everything's fine..but when my bro is home, i simply dun wanna stay there..
lols~
boss damn shocked to see me in the office juz now, asked how long i've been in the office already~
MUAHAHAHAHAHA!! i told him i've got nothing to do at home anyways~
shifted pots for 2 of the plants at my place, and added soil to the HUGE pot as well~
mom asked me to go grandps house wif her, i wanted to go at 1st, but than, bro suddenly said he's coming = i come office slack~

simply cannot stand his 'fakeness'

*yawn*
yeah~~~~~
i'm so proud of myself today~~~~
the work which my boss thinks have to drag on till next week, can be cleared by end of this week!!!! ^^
hahahahaa, no wonder he keep saying i'm scary~
he keep telling me no need work so hard, (thinks he felt bad for making me stay back so late) end up i keep telling him i've got nothing to do anyway~
till i really cannot take it, i told him, i'm doin all these, cuz i'm thinking about my wallet~ xDD
even so, he KEPT telling me NOT TO COME tml, ask me go enjoy, or rest at home, juz NO COMING BACK OFFICE!!!!!
lols~

might 'chiong' toooo much....
feeling sharp pain in stomach....suspect it's gastric due to stress (as i've juz had my lunch not too long ago).. .. ......
or mayb it's caused by the coke light i had during lunch? o.O

YESH!!!!
done!!!!
waiting for boss to print cover letters~~
meanwhile, continue wif article folding~ ^^

weeee~
done dbl checking addresses!!!
now.. .. ....ORIGAMI TIME *again* lols~~ xDDDD

sigh...
and here it goes again, the start of a vicious cycle.. ..(bro is wanting to quit his job cuz his boss dun wanna promote him to become the main in-charge).. ...
sigh~
everything he does is for show, for fame, nothing's real...he himself go tell others say he knows he's not ready, on the other hand, he goes to his boss asking for promotion, and got rejected, his boss told him he's not ready for that position yet... ....than he not happy, wanna quit... ... .....
totally speechless already....he's totally hopeless....

lalalalalalalalala~~
now mass printing the article~!!! (225 copies!)
and while i wait, i'm filling up some forms which should be done on fri!!
heheheee~~
hope dun stay till too late till voting time over....i dun wanna give the gov taht $50 juz for not voting!!!!

nice~~
done folding EVERYTHING!!!!
placed them into env already as well.. .. ..
when i'm done sealing envs, i've got nothing to do liao......:(
lols~~~

COVER LETTER DONE!!!!
finished folding all the cover letters!!!!!
only 77 copy left to fold..
but now, it seems the articles are alot more compared to the cover letters... ... ..

daijiobu!!!! i'll finish even the articles by today as well~~
so mon new set for my fren to fold~~ ^^

am in the office already~~~
havent go vote yet, later after my mom's done wif her 'family meeting' than we go vote together..(if not high chance she'll forget about the voating, and sg gov will fine her $50 for not voting)
i'm currently looking at finishing folding 220 pieces of paper (110 cover letter, 110 articles) by today~

weeeeeeee~~
wish me luck~ ^^
( times like these, origami folding exp really comes in handy~!! xDD )

if it was the guy i liked who sent me that sms, asking me to be wif him, think i'll be soooo delighted till i can fly~~~ ^^

haha~~ daydreaming here~~ i noe that's not gonna happen......

i used to debate wif myself
he's not the funniest guy i know, he's not the richest either
neither is he the one wif the hottest body, nor is he the most good looking guy
but he's the one i like the most
i've decided to stop these nonsense debating..
all that matter is, he's the one i like most...nothing else matter~
i've always said, all i wanted and needed is a guy who can make me smile frm the heart~
and juz seeing him does the trick~ ^^

sigh.......someone juz sms me asking me to be with him *again*....sigh.....
no matter how many times he asks, the answer will never change!!!!

it's almost the whole entire fb frens i have knows i've someone i like already, so y do these guys keep asking me out!?
gosh....esp the one who sms me juz only....i've already lost count of how many times i've rejected him!!!!!
i noe he's kind, he's kinda rich, he treats me really nice.....but....i dun feel that way towards him!!
i dun wanna hurt him, but i cannot accept him based on that reason alone........have to remove him frm my house warming guestlist even.....since he's still like this...and i dun wan any trouble, or any awkward moments during house warming.....

damn!
i kinda missing him alot already!!!
(and i juz met him lastnite for movie...so it hasn't been even 24hours since we parted)
i'm not gonna deny my feelings this time round...cuz it seems the more i dun wanna think about it, the more it hunts and hurts....so ya~ when i miss him, i'll admit i miss him...but not telling the whole world on fb, i'll do it here instead~~ (cuz #1, not much ppl read my blog, other than me and one or 2 of my fren.. #2, MOST ppl who read this, do not know who i'm talking about~ ^^)

weee~~~~
really seriously miss him already!!!!!
omg, wondering when's the next time we're gonna hang out again!!
but not anytime soon i guess....hope he's resting enough, if not, i wont need to pay any $$ to see the exotic PANDA!!!!!! ;p

and NO MORE FINE PRINTS WHILE POSTING MY FEELINGS FOR HIM!!!!!
lols~ xDDDD

i should avoid AT ALL COST doing things which will strain the friendship~~
i dun wan to think tooooo much again, by thingking tooo much, i'm not being very fair towards him...so i shall train to have better control over my thoughts~ ^^

last nite was gd~~
haha~ HE CRIED!!!!! but didn't get a gd look as i'm oso crying (and i dun wan him to see) ;p
movie was ok, very gd storyline (at least for me~)
it's been slightly more than 1 mth since i last met him, and it felt like 3 mth passeed already!!
when i saw him, wanted to ask if he missed me, but, i was so happy juz to see him, that qus dun matter anymore...(i simply can't stop myself frm smiling till the first few min, i cant look directly at him!!!!)

he look tired, and it seems he lost abit of weight..:(
seems to be busy wif many many stuff....(wish i could at least be of some help to him)
guess i really like him alot, cuz right after we parted, i miss him already (and like 2-3 min has passed only)
yes i liked him, and yes, i still like him, and more than anything, i want him to be happy...so if i'm not the one he wants, i'm fine wif it (i guess)..juz being able to see him, and hang out, makes me happy enough~ ^^

morning mini camwhore b4 i start work~~

^^

(only 2 photos cuz still semi sleep mode = blur blur)

ARGH!!!!!!
forgot to bring my phone out!!!!!
damn~
it seems that even b4 it's screen cracked into 1/2, my phone has been a not-so-importent thingy to me (it's main purpose has became to check time instead of letting ppl contact me)
after it cracked, i often forgotten to bring it out wif me~
hmmmmmm, ok, no need to rush back for my phone..
fren decided not to bring her baby to my place for my mom to babysit... ... ...
so yep~

I WANNA TRY THESE KINDA MAKEUP SOON!!!!

looks awesome!!

meanwhile~

i've tried the pale dying look makeup~

dunno y after i save the pic onto the com, it became this small... :(

it looks ok, though still need lots of improvements

weeeee~~~
at least he did reply to the fb pm~~~ ^^
but 'should be bah' hope is can make it......

think i'm done for the day..
sigh......he seems alot more busy than he was in the past...
wondering wad's he up to these days....wondering how's his study..wondering how's life for him..
sigh.....it kinda seem he would interact wif anyone execpt me on fb.....does that means he simply cannot be bothered?
or he dislike me till he dun wanna have anything to do wif me?
wad's the point of thinking so much, when he dun wanna let me know anything....
wad's the point, when there's a chance that i dun mean a thing to him....

yay~
work seem to keep my mind off things~~
so now..decided to pretend i didn't see anything..
gonna pretend nothing happened...^^

i'mma be creating log for my boss~~
wee~~~
today he never send me anything to do, but gave me access to create logs~
lols, think boss knows i no mood to call bah

WTF is wrong wif me!?
y can't i write properly!?
ppl say mind over matter, so if i keep telling myself i'm ok, y isn;t it working???

work work work work work work work work........
bury my mind wif work.....yes.shall try that rite now.....
need to focus on wad needs to be done.....yes....focus, even if it breaks me, i still have to work...even if i'm breaking down, have to wait till noone's ard...ican do it....i can.....i must......

i really dunno wad to think...
mind's in a mess, dunno wad to do, can't focus..
might be best for me not to make phone calls today...
paper work and log all the way...

save me, anyone, feels like it's breaking apart, something inside is hurting very much, my mind's confused, it's blanking out, save me shihui, i wanna cry, but i can't, not here, not in the office when there're ppl ard, but it hurts so bad, save me, anyone!

WTF!!!!
won movie tix for this thur, tot i wanna ask if he's free not..
go his fb......saw something.......not sure if he's refering to me.....:(
damn!!! y do i feel so insecure when it comes to him.....
my fren will sure tell me he might be talking about another person...
but i'm juz scared....i'm scared he really dun even wanna be frens.....
dun think i've cried this much for any other crush i had in the past...

Gmail's sign in to multiple account setting rocks!!!
so now i can work while blogging~~~
sweet~~~~~

zzzzzzzzzzzzz....having EXTEREME short attentions span now!!!!
=??
time to go home~
lols~

oops
cuz tat nite i slept in the office, now my boss wanna buy a foldable bed to put in my office......
when i ask him 'need one meh?' he tell me 'juz buy one put here, in case of emergency'
... ... ...lols~~
where to find foldable bed which can fit into the office!?

hmmmmm...have been slacking frm juz now, till ard after 3pm than really start work, till now, kinda not much diff frm when i chiong all the way frm 11am-7pm... ... .....weird~

still owes him a scarf, wondering if after i give it to him, will i have any other reason to bug him?

seeing one of my fren's fb status, kinda reminded me of my past..
she can still remember wad that guy was wearing, i can't
she remember how old she was, i can't
only thing i remembered was he was dark skin, alot older than i was, than his hands were very rough... .... .......one of the reasons y i was antisocial for very long.....and i stopped wearing skirt for quite a long period of time as well..

oh well, ppl say the past is past, but for some, it still lives on as memory.....which is not always a gd thing....

damn....emo again......

omg omg omg omg omg!!!
still stuck in camwhoring mode!!!
soooooooooooo hyper rite now (till my fren is kinda getting irritated working in the same office as me today~)
niceeeeeeee~

I.AM.SO......CARZY!!!!!!!!!!!!! @,@
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~~~~
........never camwhore at yesterday's event.....sadddd.. :(
but atleast there's a fren's fren who's a photog, so ya~ forced him to take few pic for me~~~
when the pic is out, can see how well i did for my makeup yesterday~
(it's the kind look SUPER pale, like anytime can faint, can die, tat kinda make up...real life look really sick, but dunno in photo how it turn out)
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i wanna see!!!! hope faster up on fb!!!!!

time to sleep (again)....
hope this time round, i'll be able to go into dream land..
crying during almost every single anime (even though they're suppose to be shounen theme ?)
ya, maybe it's not the anime, but the crying which made me felt better...

time to dream, time to see wad my mind's hidding

had my supper!!!!!
but now comes another problem... ... .....
i'm toooo full to sleep.....but that, think one more ep of anime will do the trick..
the bigger issue now is that i kinda wanna go washroom.. ...but doors are locked already..hope it wont become urgent later, instead, it'll be best if the feeling would juz disappear~
ok!
another anime and it's off to bed~ ^^

failed...
was about to sleep...but my stomach ain't letting me sleep...now 'cooking' instant hor fan..
than i remembered, my late lunch/early dinner was not yet 5pm.. ... ...even if i count it as 5pm, it has been 7hours already....
so hungry...

goin to bed soon..
felt slightly better after watching some anime..

sigh...think i'm kinda pathetic, only things unreal such as anime and manga can cheer me up..
guess cuz ppl dun really bother to do so anyways....those who knows how to, can't be bothered, those who wanna cheer me up, dunno how to.......

oh, the anime's ending song finished already...guess it's time for bed..
might not be updating my blog for sometime again...laptop dead, so can only use office com = no blogging on wkends......
unless i decided to sleep over again~

(fyi, juz now the office phone rang, i almost answered!! lucky i didn't, if it was a client, it's gonna be so weird to have someone answering the office phone at this hour)

anyways, time to sleep

sigh~
why must boss be such a nice person this time?
now, i wanna die, oso cannot..
even b4 doin anything, i'm worried about him...
noone chiong work for him, noone chit chat nonsense wif him, noone entertain his jokes which dun feel like a joke at all.......

sigh.......

dont feel like goin back to that place now..
wonder how long can i stay in the office for?

i dont wish to see their faces

dont wanna hear their voices

wonder where can i possibly go

while not affecting my work

my boss has been very kind during the 6mth i've worked here

i dont wanna cause him trouble

how i wish i can leave this world rite now

but i simply cant

there's tonnes and tonnes of work to do next wk

if i were to leave now, he won't have enough time to hire new ppl to help him

hate everything ard me rite now

hate my mom for pretending to love me when she dont

hate my bro who juz goes ard enjoying spoiling my things knowing my mom will cover up for him

hate the fact that ppl ARE selfish

hate ppl who befriend others juz to make themselves feel better

hate the fact tat for some freak reasons, my mom never stops thinking i, her daughter, is a slut,
not even for 1 sec

hate that nothing seems to go right

hate that ppl simply loves nothing more than to abandon me, juz becuz they found out i'm have nothing they can make use of anymore

hate the fact that EVERY FREAKING PERSON have someone to love, and someone who loves them, except me

hate the fact that the one i love, i cannot love, as he does not like me the way i like him, and my confession has already done it's part of breaking even our frenship apart

hate the fact that i've done the irreversable

hate the fact that i can't stop hating myself for everything and anything

guess this is how it's gonna b in the future...
ppl busy wif their own lives, wif their other frens, and telling me i need to get a life and stop bugging them.....though not directly in ur face, but their actions speaks so loud and clear tat's it's hard to ignore the msg they're sending out...

sfter her attachment, there'll be tonnes other stuff she'll be busy wif, tat's juz the way it's gonna be.....she's soooo gonna be the same as my 2 best buddies back in sch days........who hadn't been able to meet me for like more than 1 whole yr already?

i dun even dare to wish for much during last yr's bday......but guess even a tiny wish is too much to ask for.......i dare not hope for anything this yr, even if i've to celebrate it alone, so be it......

it was nice chatting wif him juz now~~~
at least someone whom i can talk to, and wont be like asking me non stop wad happened, am i ok?
juz talk, normal topics, random topics, will be gd enough~~
not popping up on my msn suddenly, after like few mths of totally ignoring me, goin
'hey! u ok not? y fb like so emo like tat?? chill lah, u got me k?'
after awhile,
'sianz....so bored...entertain me leh'
or, sudenly 'haiz.....save me'
....... .......tat is like screaming out loud... ...for me to ignore him.........

oh ya...went pawn shop sometime last week, or last last week....juz now ordered pizza, i paid 50bucks, change, mom took.....i abit turn off.....when i told her tat 50 came frm MY wallet, she can argue back somemore... ....than i juz tell her, nevermind, u want the $$, u take.....

it's amazing how when her wallet is short of a note or 2, she can tell, but when her wallet 'suddenly' have quite afew extra notes, she didn't noticed at all..... ... .......-.-

chatting wif one of my fren who's a photog~~

my 'raw' = unedited pics~~
his 'raw' = a kinda format/file for pic!!!

and it took us quite awhile to noticed we's talking about the different 'raw'!!!
xDDDDDDD

my breathing is producing those sounds which ppl having asthma makes!!!
= i should be resting but i'm still not allowing myself to sleep!!!!!

wins~~~

[SUBBED] Nana Mizuki - Junketsu Paradox (Official PV)

fren shared this, and since it's nice, tot might as well share this here too~~ ^^

done watching fairy tail ep 92!!!!
but dun think i'll be sleeping juz yet......
i've yet to completely kick the habit of self-torture...
i kinda realised it only recently tat whenever i'm pissed off, or feeling superdown, i'll either eat nonstop, or i'll keep myself awake no matter how tired i am......
guess it's the only rite thing to do, as it leaves no scar, and no one will even notice.....

i kinda miss the feeling i got when i overdose by accident when i wasn't even 18 yet....too bad overdosing on panadol dun give the same feeling as when one overdosed on muscle relaxant......

when i need someone to talk to, can i call u on the phone?
talk about random stuff, u saying stupid stuff to make me angry but make me laugh at the same time..or even we say nothing at all, juz being silent over the phone, u doin ur stuff, randomly make some funny sound, and me, listening to u while i stone...
... ... ...
guess those times are over.....for u seems soooo far and distance frm me now.. ...

ps: i'm missing u badly now, but i noe i have to stop troubling u

....... ....... ........ ........... ............ ...............
it's indeed loading VERY VERY slow... ..... .......
sigh~
not even 1/3 done loading yet!!!!!!
zzzzzzzzzzz
think i'm not gonna sleep early tonite.......

juz had a nice warm shower!!!
and my anime is loading!!!!!!!!
even though it's buffering super slowly, i'm happy enough to watch juz this one anime now!!
FAIRYTAIL ep 92!!!!!

if one fine day, i ever post my secret, it'll only mean 2 things

1, i've found where i should be, wad i should do, and someone whom i can be wif
2, i'm saying my last gd bye~

.....rant till being super emo rite now.....

where are those 'frens' wheni needed someone to talk to??
oh wait, one is busy working, and having fun wif other frens, the other 2 guess they're busy working (has been soooo long since i last heard frm them, so dun really noe wad they're up to these days), and one, guess he dun even care anymore...

soo......the rest is on fb, entertain one another.....

wow!!
i really have wayyyyyy toooooo much frens till i've lost count!!!!
zzzzzzzzz

-.-

i'm ranting on fb till i'm crying now...FUCK!
but it kinda felt gd, at least my eyes are not hurting frm being tooooo dry~

stupid singapore gov, they make everything sounds so noble of them..
got 2 fren talked back to me regarding my fb status...
one of them, she's not even a singaporean, the other, she's born into a reach family, and family decided to groom her into a lawyer when she was still in pri or early sec sch...

say i'm not being fair to our gov by saying such mean things about them..
they're not me, ofcuz they wont know how i feel.....
theu're juz some lucky kids who grew up in well protected family, and tat protection lasted even till now...

when a child grow up in a protected family, or a heck care family, and it all breaks down when they're older, BUT not old enough to know about many things, is when all the shits happens...
my family broke apart when i was ard that age...not saying that i had the worst childhood, juz saying tat's i'm one of those many who didn't have such a nice one..

ps: this whole angry had nothing to do wif the fact thet i was rejected by someone who's not singaporean

WAH!!!!!!!!!!!!
cough till kinda wanna die... ... ...
sigh........how long has it been since we last met.. ...
....think cuz my anime not loading at all, than i've nothnig to do, my mind tune back to tat channel...-.-
watch other movie!!!!

ps: i'm thinking back on that time we 1st met

eyes still burning!!!!!!!
my eyes are dry beyond believe these days!!!!!
if it continues, i might have problems working in the future... ..... .....
need to buy eye bath solutions if it continues to be this dry for the whole of next week...

ps: i miss listening to u playing the piano, but i guess u'll never noe

WEEEEE!!!
went for photoshoot this morning!!
..... .....ok, more like this afternoon~ ;p

fren loan me her lolita dress, and yep~
it's sweet loli!!!!!
was kinda worried it might look very wrong...
but turned out it kinda look ok~

waiting for the photos to be out~~ xDDDD

ps: i miss those time we had in the past, but guess u'll never noe..

seriously, couldn't care less for singapore...
for the gov has not been helping it's people, so y should i feel a sense of belonging to them?

i'm not gonna wear a freaking red T-shirt for today juz bcuz it's national day......
and i dun see y ppl are so happy about it?

yay!! we're independent as a country, a nation!!!! hurray!!!! 1st 25-30yrs it DID look after it's ppl!! now, sg is 46, and it's ppl has now became the last on it's list of those to look after....FT, PR, all have advantages, most things, regardless wad the gov say, they comes 1st...when by right, they ARE suppose to be 2nd class citizens!!!!

i'm juz voicing out my opinion...i dun hate FT or PR (those freaking perverts not included here, those aren't even considered humans to me), the ones i hate is the gov of sg...
put me in jail for all i care, at least, in jail, they're feeding the ppl there, outside, it juz seems they're doin everything they can to snatch EVERYTHING away frm a avg income family...
still want it's ppl to make more babies....they go do research on other countries, which countries wif high cost of living, have a high birth rate as well?? when it's juz nice to survive the daily rat race, how many will wanna risk having children, knowing well that they might not have enough to survive if they have to rise a children as well...and on top of that, knowing well that if one fine day, things went really bad for them, the gov WILL NOT help them.....

people who think sg is a nice country, wif gd gov who takes gd care of it's ppl...those are all history....now, the only thing sg gov is looking after, is themselves, and not their ppl....

i'm hoping not to miss him...
but it seems tat if i say i dun miss him anymore, i'll be lying to myself...
esp when there are ppl who can tell i'm trying to keep myself busy and stuff..
y do i always get stuck in the same situation?
y y WHY???
damn it!!!
shall i try to over work my body till i'm half brain dead once again?
hmmmmmm...not at the moment..i can't afford to be in tat state for now...

JIA YOU!!!!
I CAN DO IT!!!!
surviving is about living life day by day, as time goes by, juz as it is..

damn pissed off.....
sigh...some ppl are not worth the effort...
so, he left me no choice but to block him on fb...
i dun wanna waste any more breath talking to such a person...

how i wish to see at least an sms frm u....
sigh.....
nvm....

nice~~~~
had lotsa fun juz now~~
kinda had some feedback on my up comin photoshoot's outfit~
and hahaha...got to noe more about some of them...
and...LOTS of leftover beehoon!!!!
zzzzzzzzzz
should've fried 1 pack enough.....now have SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoo much leftover.....
-.-

weeeee~
another fren can't come!!!!
her mom last min dun allow her to come...zzzzzzz...sadddddd :(
bee hoon done~
wondering wad else....oh ya~
drinks later than make, dumplings later than fry, mom say like tat taste better~~ ^^

MUAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAA
everything is ready!!!
juz need to cook, and later go buy ice~
NO EMO ELMO ALLOWED TODAY!!!
and hope my bro dun come try to extra extra when my frens comes~
and he's not feeling well, better hide in his room for the whole day, wanna smoke oso dun come out smoke!!!!!!

they're gonna see my collections of books, cuz i too lazy to keep them away~ ;p
haha~
gonna continue tidying my bedroom juz abit more! (it's juz stuffing all my unfolded clothes somewherepl cant see~~) xDDDDD

bye~ ^^

yawn~~~~
goin to bed really soon!!!
kinda worried how the mini gethering will bwcome later....those who i really wish they could come, dun think even a single one of them will be coming...but either way, i've to try to make it ok even if it really turns out to be a bad get-together......

and someone juz replied on the wall tat he can't come...kinda expected tat answer....cuz for some reason, even though i dun really knows wad's goin on these days wif him, but it kinda feels like he has got lots of stuff goin on.......mayb it's true, or mayb it's juz me wanting to believe he's busy...

and everyone's VERY busy!!!!
my lao san working, no news frm another fren... ... ...and my 2 buddies working as well......
and by the looks of things... ... ..oct even though it's when the official house warming's taking place... ... ....dun think the turn out will be gd... .... .......
sigh.....guess tat's wad i get for being the anti social bitch......HAHA xDDDDD
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
ok, goin to bed at 2.30am!!!!!!!!!!!!!

gonna start writing stories here...
dun think anyone's gonna copy as it has been sometime since i last wrote anything...
so ya~
gonna seperate those by adding 'story' to the heading/title thingy!!
(as ppl who have read my blog knows, my normal post do not have that heading, i'm to lazy to 'name' all my post!!!)

comments are welcome~!!!!

story (havent come up wif the title yet..)

when i'm down, lost, and wary..
who will be the one providing a shoulder, a shelter frm the storm, and a place for me return to?
had always wished for Death to be the one, but he has indeed been kind...

he's there wif EVERYTHING i want and need, yet, he kept pushing me away..
telling me, 'it's not time for u to come yet' wif his gentle, caring voice..
'Patient, my dear, patient...in gd time to come, we'll be together for all eternity. BUT, for now, enjoy the warmth and light in the world of the living. Enjoy all those times, be it gd or bad.'

and in his embrace, he always assures me that even when the whole world rejects and stands against me, he'll be there, watching over me...

WEEEEEEEEEEEEE
juz created 2nd fb ac!!!
mainly for gaming purpose~~ ^^
and to rant and nag and entertain myself wif!!!

YES!!!
i'm gonna talk to myself on fb soon!!!!!
dun careeeee!!!!!!!!!
since i'm bored.....and since i'm goin crazy already, might as well stalk my own fb, than to go stalk other~
(even though i dun stalk ppl on fb, more llike, i spam ppl like crazy, but noone tat free to entertain me these days = entertain myself!!!!)

fren says i get worked up easily this few weeks!!!
mayb cuz there has been quite a number of issues happening...
and ESP this week, high chance it's bcuz my fren came back to work...
and...

i'm not allowed to on the fan = no air vantilations = serious mood swings

she, blasting music loud on her com = i can't make calls in peace = stressed

she, suppose to go back @ 5pm, stayed till almost 7pm juz to facebook =

my fren cant use the com to check wad she have to do =

my stuff cannot be done in time = stressed again

there~
reasons y i seems soooooooooooo angry these days~

YES!!!!
found hair extensions on taobao!!!!
lucky i noe the few name it has in chinese~~~
if not....searching there in english can make ppl vomit blood!!!!!!!!!

even after all i've said, even after all i try to do, i still can't keep my mind off u..
sigh
can someone enlighten me juz wad's on ur mind?
i dunno wad's on ur mind, but u seems to noe wad's on mine
WHICH IS NOT FAIR!!!!

wad am i to u?

why did u simply block off everything??
i seriously dunno wad u're thinking, and if u dun tell me, i'll never noe..

i grow up not knowing how to interact wif ppl..

i grow up not knowing how ppl behaves, how they think..
my phone might have spoilt in the rite time..
this way, i cant bug u through sms
fb, i've been busy ranting and nagging juz to keep my mind occupied...