怎么办?

对!! 怎么办? 怎么办?! 我开始有一丁点儿没安全感了啦!!

His words are starting to contradict, but I didn't wanna clarify as I dun wan him to come up wif more excuses etc...
Juz take this sat for example, he told me he have been booked for wedding photography, but I found out via fb that he's goin to a lingerie shoot on sat...so which is true? He goin to shoot cute young gals in lingerie or go shoot wedding??
And I asked him if he bought anything back for me frm Germany. Its ok if he didn't, I have already prepared for that as he might really be busy with work till no time to shop. But he said he did bought something back for me, just that we always meet up super last minute and he didnt have it wif him..so I said let's meet on thur~ since it's our 2mth anniversary as well..
But juz now he just let me know he's not gonna be free till Sunday.....

I really dunno wad to think le...am I the only one who really bother to plan anything in this r/s?? I know he's never gonna marry me, that will affect his reputation which he has build up..I know this seems stupid, but I don't really mind....and I have been coming up with excuses whenever my mom asks when I'm planning to introduce my bf to her....

我心真的好乱! But whenever he tells me he loves me, I believe him! And when he says he misses me so badly everyday cuz he keeps seeing my photos he have, I treat that as a he's teasing me...
Cuz I don't need to see his photos I already miss him terribly, when I see his photos, it juz made me.miss him to the extend my heart aches..(and to think he always say he's the only one who misses me and that I don't miss him at all...)

Think I should try to get sleeping pills....if not, whenever he pull stunts as such, I finds my bad habit of self torture via depriving myself of rest being most of the time, other times, I either starve or binge till I bloat like no body's business....