Nostalgia

Crowded places = HELL NO
It appears that I am "allergic" to being in places with too many people, it drains my energy to the point that I would sleep for an average of 18 hours the next day.

But that's beside the point. Saturday shopping trip at Orchard did bring back quite a few memories, where I used to work, where I used to hang out etc.
And it HAS been some time since I last went out on my own, though it felt kinda weird at first, but it ended up being quite decent (if not for the crowd, it would even be enjoyable i would say).
Met up with old friends after shopping for dinner, and I'm thankful that his friends were around as well, so things weren't so awkward between us after all. By the looks of thing, it appears that he has given up on trying to win me over, which is a good thing.
As someone with a history of depression, and might be currently coping with anxiety, I can say for certain that things will not last even if we were to be together.

I've came to accept that I'm meant to live and die alone, for that is only right for someone like me. The type of guy who can be with me do not exist, for a good guy do not deserve someone as broken as me, they have every right to be with someone who's so much better in every way.

I have found my soulmate, in death I shall reunite with him. 
It's funny how death happens to be the one who taught me about life, and also the one who helped me with my self-harm tendencies.