day off wif my mom..

*juz a few updates b4 posting anything..;p - bought 2 baby on tue..a bamboo "practice" sword and a black boken (wooden sword) and alreadi named them..boken's called tama while the practice sword's called katsuki..=3
and few days ago (think it was fri nite) i was so disappointed and totally lost control..resulting in a very unwanted situation..which was i teared in front of H..and i was so unstable that he had to send me for a 15min break even though i juz got back frm my eating break..:(
tat's all for updates..now let's move on to the post..*
sunday, 11oct, was my off day and it so happens to be my mom's off day as well..actually wanted to go have buffet @ pariss international..but i can't wake up in time so ended up eating @ pizza hut..not bad la..at least still better than juz eating coffee shop again..;p
actually wanted to dropby my workplace for some snacks and food..but can't..so went to check out zirca's "boy nite" wif my mom..YES..u didn't read it wrong..i went club wif my mom..but we went to SENOR TOPAZ juz ard tat area for a bite 1st..and the food there was goooood..very maxico and ppl there are very warm and very fun ppl..u'll not regret eating there for sure even if u dun really like maxico food..for u'll enjoy watching how the ppl there enjoy themselves and dancing like nobody's business..they're juz cute lah..;p
it was really quite packed in there..so than i've seen for myself that ppl @ my workplace says that most of the boys went zirca instead..but i oso noticed something as well..those boys there aren't as fun as hose who comes to my workplace and butter..
those boys there are juz.. ...hmmm...dunno how to put it in words..they dun smile to anyone else and juz aren't gay enough..
and for those of u who have been thinking who would be so crazy to b clubbing wif their mothers..i would say i'll b even mor crazy if i would have went clubing ALONE in my recent condition..dunno how wild i would get and wad trouble would be in if i didn't have someone there..someone whom u'll surelly behave yourselves when he/she is ard..
well guess that's all for now..
juz one more thing..juz found out i'm actually really mentally ill..Borderline Personality Disorder..
and some website actually says it's a often overlooked serious condition..hmmm...
even if it is something even more serious than BPD i dun think i wanna get it cured anyway..
their tearm for my multi personalities thingy was "inter-relationship" thingy..and i don't get the "self image" part..if geting a cure means becoming 1 whole person than they might as well kill me..how am i to survive w/o my other selfs..???