guess everything's fine..since he's posting stuff on his fb again...(even though i do not know a single word he posted, but i guess he's fine)...

my lao san side, tat guy replied her already....it appears she did think tooo much....
"Yay! I reali nid stop anyhw tink cos he is always there nvr gone"
guess everything's goin fine again over on her side...

she keep asking me dun emo....
how can i!?
it's not as if she do not my situation now...it's alot worst than hers.....

mayb......juz mayb......i should avoid him again....
since i'll never be the one he misses...
he says i'm juz a fren....
ya...a fren who he like almost wont contact if i didn't contact him 1st......

i'm scared...if i avoid him again.....i might lose him forever.....
but how can i keep on goin like this when it's hurting me more and more..??
i'm not strong, not as strong as ppl think i am....
juz bcuz i LOOK like i can handle wadeva the world throws at me, doesn't mean EVERYONE must play their part in making my life harder...

i miss my great wall which kept EVERYONE out...
i miss those days when being alone doesn't bother me at all...
i miss not needing anyone other than myself...
i miss the me who do not know love, or the pain which follows...
i miss everything i ever WERE....

y do ppl keep thinking i dun need anyone whom i can rely on!?
i really dun get tat at all.........
it seems not many ppl treat me like i'm a gal....
actually..not many ppl treat me like a human being....

sigh....
i want not the whole world, but to be wif the one i love, my world, is enough to make me smile..
sigh...guess tat alone is a damn impossible thing..