SUDDEN EMO ATTACK!!!!
dunno y but ya..it's the whole "my life is meaningless, can i juz die!?" shit again....-.-
suddenly felt like nothing's real, not even frens ard me....for i do not know anything anymore..
it's like many of them will say "i miss you"...but who are the ones who really do..!?
when i do not have time for them, it always seems like it's my fault....
but when i have the time, it seems like i'm the only idiot who doesn't have a life or anything to do...
and ppl who knows me kinda know i don't really ask ppl out....i mean like what's the point if i ask ppl out..!! when my rejection rate is like 98%......why even bother ppl when you know their answer is NO...!?
sigh................i shouldn't have made frens in the 1st place.....than can live as i did in the past....at least won't hurt like this......if so.....maybe "he" would still be ard.....at least he is all i need in the past, for he knows me best, and i'm most comfortable wif him since he's the one who watched me grew up........even when noone can see him, or even belives that he exists, he's all i need.........and he will always be there for me, wif no complains...or wad-so-eva......
gd nite world, and may i pray tat i do not wake.....
a prayer which will not be answered nevertheless......