morning..

(dun even noe why am i blogging when my mind is still pretty much blank)

but i'll juz blog anyways....keep record of thing which has been happening in my life...all those gd & bad which i would wanna remember in the future....

so even if i lost my memory one day, hope someone can let me now i have this blog...

(noe i'm sounding kinda weird...but it's normal)

someone asked me in my formspring "will u ever cry"

in places where i will be seen? hardly...

but i can be a cry baby when i'm alone....

used to cry myself to sleep for few years, think tat habit might be coming back...

(tat was when i was down wif depression, and it was tat period when i tried to end everything dunno how many times)

it may seems i've gotten way over tat period.....did i really?

this feeling of ZERO selfworth, low energy lvl.....it all seems so deja vu....

the head-strong surface can only last for so long, than it's all over again.....

the wall ard me need to be re-built........

but it's always a pain to decide if i should keep everyone out, or keep some by my side.....