fine, seriously..no point talking to anyone anymore.....every freaking person thinks i'm doin every fucking thing for myself only (except i know some of those cosplay frens dun think that way, and shihui)..my mom who rise me, the fren who worked wif me...they've seen how i treat others, yet that's how they think of me....should've known..frm the moment my very own mother called me a filthy cheap slut, i should've known....frm the moment she told everyone i've been using her money and never ever given her a single cent, i should've known.....the world is juz a freaking lie.....everything's a lie....every happy memory is created juz for them to crash in the future....everything is done for the greater evil..every freaking thing.....if that's the case, y was i stupid enough to believe in humans in the 1st place??
y did i even gave 'believe in love' a chance? i was so happy when i was living on hating the world...frens came, convinced me to change..now...the only one i can hate is myself....hate myself for being so stupid...hate myself for letting my guard down, hate myself for being overly considerate for others that i did not kill myself so many times, when i was about to, i remembered things i've yet to do, the trouble i'll be causing others..now, i'm said to be always self-centered....later after work, i'll see how things goes....if i still can't find any reason for me to continue staying here, reasons which do not include anyone else, than i dun see any point in this life anymore...