sigh
juz when i thought i can pretend that nothing's wrong....my mom never fails to turn everything upsidedown...
gonna stay in this job, for another slightly more than a yr...than....it's gd bye.........unless something happen within that yr whch made me change my mind.....but dun think that chance is high....even though wad i'm looking for is something very simple.............but seeing the way things are goin, noone will ever be able to see me for who i really am, let alone finding someone who likes me for being me....

it's silly to cry over a family which does nothing but hurt me emotionally, but my heart achs so much i really wanna cry....the funny thing is, tears won't come out.........where are those who promised to be by my side when i need them.....none....(not that i'm hoping for anyhting else, it's all expected)

starting to lose faith in humanities, already lossing faith in myself....
hope brings not joy but disappointment..
knowing light brings not comfort but fear when dark comes creeping near..
life is not something to enjoy but an enduring race for those with strong will..
the weak and soft, who have only themselves to rely on, can only go quietly insane..
mind, heart, and soul, broken and twisted..
we no longer able to tell the right frm the wrong, for everything, every value, every meaning, have been twisted and turned, into something totally different