y am i so stupid? y even bother talking things out wif ppl?? y even bother telling them wad happened? now this happen...nothing gd ever comes frm talking thing out...nothing gd ever comes frm telling ppl  wad actually happened, and wad u're thinking, or how u're feeling..

told them the story..now? they despise me as well...
fine...since it's no longer a secret, i dun have to hide anymore...
some might know my bro tried to kill me more than once, and think i did blog about my mom letting her bf molest me, by saying 'i didn't see anything' while she was standing right infront when her bf touched me..
but the thing 99% of my frens didn't know, is that i was raped by my bro when i was still very young, back when i didn't even know that sort of touching is wrong..and when i was even younger, i was being molested by a stranger..how old was i back than? in kindergarden i guess, when the old chong pang market was still ard....juz b4 i turned 18, i went to help out at a KTV my mom's fren, a china lady, owns...and the same bad thing happened...that i did told my mom....and she gave me the 'u well deserved it' look....should've called the police back than, and not kept quiet juz becuz the boss is her fren..sometimes i feel like i need to get these off my chest, but than again..i can't tell ppl these...

 i only told 2 or 3 very close fren all these.....the rest dun noe a bout this..if they were to know, they'll juz treat it as something to laugh and joke about..juz like wad's happening now...they freaking thinks i made everything up to make them pity me...y the hell will i do that? noone knows, juz like how ppl like to lie when there's no need to..