sometimes i juz wonder, if  i manage to find a bf, wif my family being like this, how many guys out there can actually be there for me when my family makes me feel like life simply ain't worth living? how many guys can actually makes me feel safe wif them ard, for someone like me, where home isn't even a safe place to be....
mayb it my charater...growing up in such a environment, mayb my mind has been broken long ago...no longer sane as i should be, no human would really accept me for who i am anymore.....sooner or later, i'll reject myself more and more, till one fine day, i can no longer find a single thing of me which i can accept..by than, life would be totally meaningless..guess that's how my life is to end...by my hands, i shall die, rejected by all including me, life is no longer worth living..