Saturday, July 31, 2010
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
HATE THOSE STUPID SPAMS ON MY COMMENT BOX!!!!
so, i've removed it as i really dun wanna see anymore of those useless spamming...
damn it.....juz when i was gonna post some gd stuff here.....end up... ......
sigh...nvm.......let's move on to wad i actually wanna post k..???
was experimenting wif crochet teddy bears past few days....manage to finish 2 basic small ones..^^
the blue bear was my trial-run bear.....so it actually look kinda off..;p
while the pink one is like the 1st real thing!! when actually the pink 1 was suppose to be the trail..
my lao san wanted it....so i made the blue 1 to test out the stuffing of cotton and sewing the parts together......when i'm pretty certain on how to do it....i went on to complete the pink bear..^^
and i actually gave my trial run bear a name!!!!
" bear ver 0.1....code name: C.B.B (Crazy Blue Bear)"
WAHAHAHAAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!
okies.......gonna go back to experiment on more bears~
ja ne~~
Friday, July 23, 2010
mew mew~~
went to watch "the sorcerer's apprentice" juz now wif my lao er and lao san~!!!
and oso my dear dear, kurosaki..^^
well....it's nice to watch, even though storyline a little predictable.....;p
but the MUST WATCH movie will be coming out aug 16......
---- "THE EXPENDABLES" ----
can't wait for tat to be out~~ ^^
anyways.........glad tat regardless of so many things tat has happened.....i've still got quite a handful of ppl who cares about me.....
and they dun really give a shit if i can be a pain in the butt when i'm pissed off...
or tat i can be a real emo-drama-mama when i'm really down........
or tat i can be really irritating and annoying when i get super duper hyper........
they see and accept me for who i am.....the real me.......
Egon and ShuFen, ppl frm my recent ex-workplace (tat club i juz got 'kicked out' frm) are organizing an outing on aug......and they invited me to join them.....^^
i have a habit of not goin clubbing or partying when i do not have enough $$ wif me....but they say $$ matter aside.....juz go there and enjoy myself....cuz important thing is tat i go join them....(awwww~~)
Oh Shit!!!
Oops....actually plan to go library wif fren later where he can practice his piano.....but juz found out online tat the library is actually charging ppl $6.10/hr for using their piano...:'(
sigh~~
think we hang out at RP's library again better....=.=
and oso my dear dear, kurosaki..^^
well....it's nice to watch, even though storyline a little predictable.....;p
but the MUST WATCH movie will be coming out aug 16......
---- "THE EXPENDABLES" ----
can't wait for tat to be out~~ ^^
anyways.........glad tat regardless of so many things tat has happened.....i've still got quite a handful of ppl who cares about me.....
and they dun really give a shit if i can be a pain in the butt when i'm pissed off...
or tat i can be a real emo-drama-mama when i'm really down........
or tat i can be really irritating and annoying when i get super duper hyper........
they see and accept me for who i am.....the real me.......
Egon and ShuFen, ppl frm my recent ex-workplace (tat club i juz got 'kicked out' frm) are organizing an outing on aug......and they invited me to join them.....^^
i have a habit of not goin clubbing or partying when i do not have enough $$ wif me....but they say $$ matter aside.....juz go there and enjoy myself....cuz important thing is tat i go join them....(awwww~~)
Oh Shit!!!
Oops....actually plan to go library wif fren later where he can practice his piano.....but juz found out online tat the library is actually charging ppl $6.10/hr for using their piano...:'(
sigh~~
think we hang out at RP's library again better....=.=
Sunday, July 18, 2010
sigh~
sad.....sad....sad.....sad....sad.....
:'(
officially no more work for me from now on......no more stereo......no more night life......
and the worst part is......it's till now tat i've noticed tat i'm totally redundant to them......
sigh.....
they claim tat NOONE could contact me....when the fact is tat no one did even contact me.......juz like how she lied saying that i did not reply her sms tat time...when the truth is that she didn't even sms me....only called afew times.......like wtf!!!!!
and now that my reason for pushing myself to this very state is gone, and tat she has taken over the place.......it might be a gd thing tat i'm no longer there.......
but than again.....this means i've got no source of income.......which mean fuck my health, gotta go find job real soon, even if i've not recover........yeah......FML.........
sad.....sad....sad.....sad....sad.....
:'(
officially no more work for me from now on......no more stereo......no more night life......
and the worst part is......it's till now tat i've noticed tat i'm totally redundant to them......
sigh.....
they claim tat NOONE could contact me....when the fact is tat no one did even contact me.......juz like how she lied saying that i did not reply her sms tat time...when the truth is that she didn't even sms me....only called afew times.......like wtf!!!!!
and now that my reason for pushing myself to this very state is gone, and tat she has taken over the place.......it might be a gd thing tat i'm no longer there.......
but than again.....this means i've got no source of income.......which mean fuck my health, gotta go find job real soon, even if i've not recover........yeah......FML.........
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Friday, July 16, 2010
wee~~~
juz now went watch movie wif Blake and his group of frens.....total head count = 17 people~!!!!!
O.o
it's the 1st time for me to be hanging out wif such a big group....and surprisingly....it was loads of fun~!!!! ^^
and managed to make few new frens as well...though only got 1 of their number.....but hey....there's still next time......cuz think i'm most likely being fired from my job already......might have been better tat way anyways.... ......
it's like i used to enjoy working there alot, and was really happy there.....
and i wonder when did it all became past tense..........wonder wad went wrong........maybe it was really my fault all along.........wasn't gd enough for them........wasn't worthy enough to be working along side wif them from the very beginning......tat's y it has lead to this now.......
sigh~
it might be for the best for them to really hate me rite now.....for tat's how things were in the very beginning......
and there i was....stupid enough to actually plan tat i wanna celebrate my bday this year wif them.......forget it......all those plans.....juz forget everything....for even if i manage to stay there till my bday.....no one would fucking care anyways.......for someone unworthy and useless.....who would even bother to spend their time for my bday.......which means absolutely NOTHING or wad-so-ever.......
so now basically not only do i have to try to recover asap, i also have to start looking for new job....NO MORE NITELIFE!!!!!!
cannot strain my health anymore........and i dun wanna let people make my feel like i'm some worthless shit anymore.......
sigh.........Sigh...........
think i goin back to bed soon.......head's kinda spinning already........
ja ne~
juz now went watch movie wif Blake and his group of frens.....total head count = 17 people~!!!!!
O.o
it's the 1st time for me to be hanging out wif such a big group....and surprisingly....it was loads of fun~!!!! ^^
and managed to make few new frens as well...though only got 1 of their number.....but hey....there's still next time......cuz think i'm most likely being fired from my job already......might have been better tat way anyways.... ......
it's like i used to enjoy working there alot, and was really happy there.....
and i wonder when did it all became past tense..........wonder wad went wrong........maybe it was really my fault all along.........wasn't gd enough for them........wasn't worthy enough to be working along side wif them from the very beginning......tat's y it has lead to this now.......
sigh~
it might be for the best for them to really hate me rite now.....for tat's how things were in the very beginning......
and there i was....stupid enough to actually plan tat i wanna celebrate my bday this year wif them.......forget it......all those plans.....juz forget everything....for even if i manage to stay there till my bday.....no one would fucking care anyways.......for someone unworthy and useless.....who would even bother to spend their time for my bday.......which means absolutely NOTHING or wad-so-ever.......
so now basically not only do i have to try to recover asap, i also have to start looking for new job....NO MORE NITELIFE!!!!!!
cannot strain my health anymore........and i dun wanna let people make my feel like i'm some worthless shit anymore.......
sigh.........Sigh...........
think i goin back to bed soon.......head's kinda spinning already........
ja ne~
Thursday, July 15, 2010
thank you~~
hmmmm.....it's like suddenly i noticed tat despite tha fact tat there are many who cant wait for me to die.....there are oso quite a number of people who care actually...^^
and like my mother, she normally dun bother wif wad ever happens to me.......cuz i've been livin mostly by myself since young, so she dun really worry much when it comes to me.....
but now....she's like calling every now and than, juz to make sure that i dun do things anyhow...(like eating fastfood delivery or not eating at all cuz i'm too lazy to cook something..;p )
even my new fren, Yong (tat mac delivery guy..), oso seems to care.....^^
maybe it's cuz he's a guy, and i'm a gal..??? O.o
hmmm...even if tat's the only reason, it's still kinda new to me......cuz in the past, no guys ever treat me as a gal.....mostly i'm like a 'brother' to them than a sister.....=.=
i guess it's due to the fact tat i'm not your typical type of gals.....gentle, kind, soft spoken.....normally wears a skirt and plays wif doll...namely barbie.....
well...i still dun wear a skirt tat often.....usually in a pair of jeans......i still hate barbie.....but i do have a dollfie....^^
and i'm kinda starting to grow on soft toys.....currently having like 4 normal size, think 3 small ones....and 2 big ones.....tat's kinda alot for someone who used to dislike soft toys....;p
hmmm...okies.....
think i gonna cook something to eat now....
ja ne~
and like my mother, she normally dun bother wif wad ever happens to me.......cuz i've been livin mostly by myself since young, so she dun really worry much when it comes to me.....
but now....she's like calling every now and than, juz to make sure that i dun do things anyhow...(like eating fastfood delivery or not eating at all cuz i'm too lazy to cook something..;p )
even my new fren, Yong (tat mac delivery guy..), oso seems to care.....^^
maybe it's cuz he's a guy, and i'm a gal..??? O.o
hmmm...even if tat's the only reason, it's still kinda new to me......cuz in the past, no guys ever treat me as a gal.....mostly i'm like a 'brother' to them than a sister.....=.=
i guess it's due to the fact tat i'm not your typical type of gals.....gentle, kind, soft spoken.....normally wears a skirt and plays wif doll...namely barbie.....
well...i still dun wear a skirt tat often.....usually in a pair of jeans......i still hate barbie.....but i do have a dollfie....^^
and i'm kinda starting to grow on soft toys.....currently having like 4 normal size, think 3 small ones....and 2 big ones.....tat's kinda alot for someone who used to dislike soft toys....;p
hmmm...okies.....
think i gonna cook something to eat now....
ja ne~
Seppuku.....to protect my last remaining bit of honor... ...to die by the sword
fucking irritated!!!!!!!
=(
it's like i sick still go work....juz so tat i still can try to help as much as i can.....
dun appreciate never mind......dun fucking hell shout and scold me for nothing u idiots!!!
ccb.....i already not feeling well, still go help, wad more u wan me to do sia..!?
wan me to die juz say lah....no need for all those needless stunts and stuff to let me know tat u all dun like me.....i wont say anything de....i'll juz ask u to go get a very gd katana, must be sharp......
than give me the katana, and i promise i'm not gonna kill anyone else wif it.....
lastly, the main event all have been waiting for.....MY DEATH!!!!!
after i have the katana in my hands, i shall carry out Seppuku rite in your face........
i will neither run, nor will i hide.......
fucking idiots.......make me cough till i vomited all my lunch out.....after no more food left to puke...end up vomiting gastric acid.....now my throat hurts like hell.......and juz now i still wasn't allowed to come back home....when i think my body really cannot take it, i simply walked out.....
rather get fired than to faint and die there.....
now asst manager making a big fuss.....
called me but i didn't answer.....for fuck sake, my throat is in so much pain already, dun expect me to listen to you shouting at me across the phone while not being able to defend myself...
so this is our sms log thingy...
me "sorry xxxxxx..i went home already....really cannot take it....My throat very pain now...cant really talk....so can't answer ur call"
xxxxxx "Who said u cld go hm?did u ask my permission???"
me "well.. if i have asked for permission..i dun think i can..for i've alreadi asked xxx if i can take mc for today b4 i vomited.. but he says tonite not enough ppl so cannot.."
xxxxxx "And tat gives u the rite to leave as and when u feel like it??"
and i stop replying after tat....for it'll most definitely lead up to a heated argument if i were to reply tat sms.........and i seriously am not trying to pick a fight here.....so ya.....leave it at there is gd enough.......
=(
it's like i sick still go work....juz so tat i still can try to help as much as i can.....
dun appreciate never mind......dun fucking hell shout and scold me for nothing u idiots!!!
ccb.....i already not feeling well, still go help, wad more u wan me to do sia..!?
wan me to die juz say lah....no need for all those needless stunts and stuff to let me know tat u all dun like me.....i wont say anything de....i'll juz ask u to go get a very gd katana, must be sharp......
than give me the katana, and i promise i'm not gonna kill anyone else wif it.....
lastly, the main event all have been waiting for.....MY DEATH!!!!!
after i have the katana in my hands, i shall carry out Seppuku rite in your face........
i will neither run, nor will i hide.......
fucking idiots.......make me cough till i vomited all my lunch out.....after no more food left to puke...end up vomiting gastric acid.....now my throat hurts like hell.......and juz now i still wasn't allowed to come back home....when i think my body really cannot take it, i simply walked out.....
rather get fired than to faint and die there.....
now asst manager making a big fuss.....
called me but i didn't answer.....for fuck sake, my throat is in so much pain already, dun expect me to listen to you shouting at me across the phone while not being able to defend myself...
so this is our sms log thingy...
me "sorry xxxxxx..i went home already....really cannot take it....My throat very pain now...cant really talk....so can't answer ur call"
xxxxxx "Who said u cld go hm?did u ask my permission???"
me "well.. if i have asked for permission..i dun think i can..for i've alreadi asked xxx if i can take mc for today b4 i vomited.. but he says tonite not enough ppl so cannot.."
xxxxxx "And tat gives u the rite to leave as and when u feel like it??"
and i stop replying after tat....for it'll most definitely lead up to a heated argument if i were to reply tat sms.........and i seriously am not trying to pick a fight here.....so ya.....leave it at there is gd enough.......
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
F**K my life!
curse me for having such "older" bro.......who cant even behave his age.....
early in the mornin listening to techno FULL BLAST already......how am i suppose to rest like tat sia!!!?
@#^*^@%$
no $$ my fault......no cigg oso my fault...!?
wa kao.....i'm his younger sis noe....not atm cum cigg supplier noe.....like wtf!!!!!!
kns......now i know why the hell am my condition getting frm bad to worst........maybe i should juz simply overdose enough to go hospital, but not to die.......when nurse and doc ask my why did i overdose......i shall tell them the truth......
.... ..... .............wad da hell......waad ever lah.....knn......today start work @ 3pm, end @ 3am......and i fucking hell woke up like tat......si be no mood to go work liao sia......ccb.....
aiya...kns lah.......gotta go work liao...if not later late again.....i die die cant stand ppl nag at me today.......on a very short fuse.......can blow up anytime.......
early in the mornin listening to techno FULL BLAST already......how am i suppose to rest like tat sia!!!?
@#^*^@%$
no $$ my fault......no cigg oso my fault...!?
wa kao.....i'm his younger sis noe....not atm cum cigg supplier noe.....like wtf!!!!!!
kns......now i know why the hell am my condition getting frm bad to worst........maybe i should juz simply overdose enough to go hospital, but not to die.......when nurse and doc ask my why did i overdose......i shall tell them the truth......
.... ..... .............wad da hell......waad ever lah.....knn......today start work @ 3pm, end @ 3am......and i fucking hell woke up like tat......si be no mood to go work liao sia......ccb.....
aiya...kns lah.......gotta go work liao...if not later late again.....i die die cant stand ppl nag at me today.......on a very short fuse.......can blow up anytime.......
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Hachiko~ the dog story~
OMG...!!!
bought the DVD for tat movie and juz watched it wif my mom.....
and guess wad.....BOTH of us were crying like.....throughout at least half the movie.....=.=
based on a true story...the 1 i bought was the American's remake.....gonna get da Japanese version soon as well...;p
anyways......hang out wif my lao san, as usual.....but we have 1 new fren who joined us juz now.....my tattooist's gf...Oops...ex-gf.......and after reading her blog........kinda feel sorry for her.....
sigh.....
really dun understand wad the hell are guys thinking.......we gals treat them so gd.....take us forgranted.......we juz make noise abit only.....say we making a big fuss.....
sigh.......still think my bf best.........no matter wad happens.......we noe tat we love each other as much as the other love us.......^^
bought the DVD for tat movie and juz watched it wif my mom.....
and guess wad.....BOTH of us were crying like.....throughout at least half the movie.....=.=
based on a true story...the 1 i bought was the American's remake.....gonna get da Japanese version soon as well...;p
anyways......hang out wif my lao san, as usual.....but we have 1 new fren who joined us juz now.....my tattooist's gf...Oops...ex-gf.......and after reading her blog........kinda feel sorry for her.....
sigh.....
really dun understand wad the hell are guys thinking.......we gals treat them so gd.....take us forgranted.......we juz make noise abit only.....say we making a big fuss.....
sigh.......still think my bf best.........no matter wad happens.......we noe tat we love each other as much as the other love us.......^^
lol..!!!!
juz finish my supper~ wee~~xD
(and wif tat....i'm sure to see a doc later in the afternoon now...;p)
and juz noticed tat da guy who delivered my supper for me actually sms me~ O.o
hahaha...so cute....apologizing for delivering my meal late when he was actually almost 30min early...!!!! Haa...XD
he's kinda cute oso.....too bad looked abit too young...
o wait.....he replied.....XD
heeheehee....*cheeky smile*
chee...dun get da wrong idea ok..!?
it's always gd to make new frens....=p
O.o
his name is yan yong....can call him Yong~
yeah~ made a new fren nya~~ ^^
oh ya....neko-chan have to apologize to onee-sama later for making frens w/o her acknowledgment 1st......=(
guess she'll find out once she wake up...either frm this post, or via my phone record.....
depending on which one she'll read 1st..
sigh.....
hope this Yong is not juz another one of those guys onee-sama wanna protect me frm....
if not..... !! *~ shiver ~*
juz finish my supper~ wee~~xD
(and wif tat....i'm sure to see a doc later in the afternoon now...;p)
and juz noticed tat da guy who delivered my supper for me actually sms me~ O.o
hahaha...so cute....apologizing for delivering my meal late when he was actually almost 30min early...!!!! Haa...XD
he's kinda cute oso.....too bad looked abit too young...
o wait.....he replied.....XD
heeheehee....*cheeky smile*
chee...dun get da wrong idea ok..!?
it's always gd to make new frens....=p
O.o
his name is yan yong....can call him Yong~
yeah~ made a new fren nya~~ ^^
oh ya....neko-chan have to apologize to onee-sama later for making frens w/o her acknowledgment 1st......=(
guess she'll find out once she wake up...either frm this post, or via my phone record.....
depending on which one she'll read 1st..
sigh.....
hope this Yong is not juz another one of those guys onee-sama wanna protect me frm....
if not..... !! *~ shiver ~*
sigh~ why lah...why???
juz when i thought tat my tattooist has found the rite gal......(since they seems very happy together)......he went on and did some stupid things again........it's like no one have to act when with the one they love...
dun have to be sweet when you're actually not..
dun have to be tender when you're not....
dun have to pretend to be something you're not.....
for if the other party love you for who you are.....all you have to do is juz be yourself......
if you pretend to be something else.....you'll never know if he/she loves the REAL you or not.......
sigh~
SIGH~~~
dunno, dun care, dun bother......for who am i to get involved.....
actually wanna post more about how MY day went.....(cuz everyone likes to talk about themselves rather than others)........but end up talking about these stuff instead.....
hmmmmm.....guess i'll juz have to sleep this feeling off and talk about myself later when i wake....(provided i manage to shake this feeling off tat is.....=.=)
dun have to be sweet when you're actually not..
dun have to be tender when you're not....
dun have to pretend to be something you're not.....
for if the other party love you for who you are.....all you have to do is juz be yourself......
if you pretend to be something else.....you'll never know if he/she loves the REAL you or not.......
sigh~
SIGH~~~
dunno, dun care, dun bother......for who am i to get involved.....
actually wanna post more about how MY day went.....(cuz everyone likes to talk about themselves rather than others)........but end up talking about these stuff instead.....
hmmmmm.....guess i'll juz have to sleep this feeling off and talk about myself later when i wake....(provided i manage to shake this feeling off tat is.....=.=)
Monday, July 12, 2010
can't wait for my off day tml~
invited lots of ppl for ice cream @ Gelare, cwp, @ nite....wondering how many would actually come...O.o
( actually it's not really invite....juz post it up on my fb status....whoever wanna come can juz come and join me..;p )
really hope to get my notebook soon~~~~
tat way i can post things up ,be it fb or blog, while on my way to work.....and oso play my games on fb.....XD
pray hard, pray hard....hope da letter will be in my mail box by this week...~.^
invited lots of ppl for ice cream @ Gelare, cwp, @ nite....wondering how many would actually come...O.o
( actually it's not really invite....juz post it up on my fb status....whoever wanna come can juz come and join me..;p )
really hope to get my notebook soon~~~~
tat way i can post things up ,be it fb or blog, while on my way to work.....and oso play my games on fb.....XD
pray hard, pray hard....hope da letter will be in my mail box by this week...~.^
Gd Nite Every1~~~ ^^
time to pray, time to sleep
time to put all woes away
once you wake, it's a brand new day
and surely you're gonna see those smiles again
...important to me, are those around
and their voices are the most lovely sound
to see them play, and hear them laugh
to have loads of fun or juz lazing around
when i close my eyes, those time continues
when i wake, the fun shall continue
for i'm sure we'll hang out again, soon~
♥
'stories' will most likely be up on tue...
nite min'na~~
time to put all woes away
once you wake, it's a brand new day
and surely you're gonna see those smiles again
...important to me, are those around
and their voices are the most lovely sound
to see them play, and hear them laugh
to have loads of fun or juz lazing around
when i close my eyes, those time continues
when i wake, the fun shall continue
for i'm sure we'll hang out again, soon~
♥
'stories' will most likely be up on tue...
nite min'na~~
Sunday, July 11, 2010
juz got home frm work.....yeah!!!! =.=
tired till dunno wad to say..........and ordered mac breakfast to enjoy while i watch some anime online.......
shall update more stuff when my brain is truly awake......after my sleep.....;p
tian liang shuo wan an.....which is saying gd nite when it's morning in chinese.....
tat's like my every weekend....lol.....xD
okies~
gonna end this here......*yawn*
oh ya.....my off day is tue~ yea~~
hmmmmm..y am i saying it here....????
O.o
=.=
random.......... .........
tired till dunno wad to say..........and ordered mac breakfast to enjoy while i watch some anime online.......
shall update more stuff when my brain is truly awake......after my sleep.....;p
tian liang shuo wan an.....which is saying gd nite when it's morning in chinese.....
tat's like my every weekend....lol.....xD
okies~
gonna end this here......*yawn*
oh ya.....my off day is tue~ yea~~
hmmmmm..y am i saying it here....????
O.o
=.=
random.......... .........
Saturday, July 10, 2010
you're loaded......So..!?
director..?? kiss my a**..!!!!
so wad if you are director of some big shot company.....!?
so wad if all your frens are also directors in their company as well....!??
Do I have to care..?!?
NO!!! hell no dude...for all i care is tat YOU ordered 20 shots from me and tat you pay for them....
and hell no do i remember seeing Anything which even hint tat DIRECTORS Do Not have to pay for their drinks......meaning.......you have to pay lah~!!!
wad pissed me off was not the fact tat u keep telling me tat you are a director.....but you fucking attitude and the fact tat u'll disappear from the venue once u see my face.....juz to run from the bill....and when i finally caught you chatting wif your frens by the bar.....u can actually rise your fucking voice and shout at me.....
idiot........think rich people can get away wif anything and everything..??
think again stupid......you are juz god damn lucky tat my manager and most people who work there alongside wif me has not done anything to make me hate them......
if not......*evil grin*
i'm gonna cause a great HuuHaa.....and create drama already.....and i make sure you are the one to be thrown out and maybe sued.....dun ever forget tat clubs have cctv recording wad ever goin on within it.....and never forget.....NEVER ever cross a female........especially 1 who isn't exactly mentally stable.......
so wad if you are director of some big shot company.....!?
so wad if all your frens are also directors in their company as well....!??
Do I have to care..?!?
NO!!! hell no dude...for all i care is tat YOU ordered 20 shots from me and tat you pay for them....
and hell no do i remember seeing Anything which even hint tat DIRECTORS Do Not have to pay for their drinks......meaning.......you have to pay lah~!!!
wad pissed me off was not the fact tat u keep telling me tat you are a director.....but you fucking attitude and the fact tat u'll disappear from the venue once u see my face.....juz to run from the bill....and when i finally caught you chatting wif your frens by the bar.....u can actually rise your fucking voice and shout at me.....
idiot........think rich people can get away wif anything and everything..??
think again stupid......you are juz god damn lucky tat my manager and most people who work there alongside wif me has not done anything to make me hate them......
if not......*evil grin*
i'm gonna cause a great HuuHaa.....and create drama already.....and i make sure you are the one to be thrown out and maybe sued.....dun ever forget tat clubs have cctv recording wad ever goin on within it.....and never forget.....NEVER ever cross a female........especially 1 who isn't exactly mentally stable.......
Friday, July 9, 2010
still damn sleepy~!!!!!! =((
it's like gonna rain soon and a perfect weather to be sleeping in instead of goin work.....
but no work = no $$$
sigh~
anyways......how i wish i could hire some1 to kill tat IDIOT dickhead for me......
it's like pls! stop saying u love me when u obviously don't!!
stop asking stupid questions when i've already given u the answer......it's juz tat u refuse to believe..
and STOP CALLING AND SMS-ING ME WHEN U DUN READ WAD I SEND U AND DUN LISTEN TO A SINGLE WORD WHEN I CALL....!!!!!
enough said......
damn it!
actually wanna post more about wad happened @ work.....end up now my mind is in a state of blank... ... ...-.-
anyways...gtg~
gonna leave for work very soon......
ja ne~
it's like gonna rain soon and a perfect weather to be sleeping in instead of goin work.....
but no work = no $$$
sigh~
anyways......how i wish i could hire some1 to kill tat IDIOT dickhead for me......
it's like pls! stop saying u love me when u obviously don't!!
stop asking stupid questions when i've already given u the answer......it's juz tat u refuse to believe..
and STOP CALLING AND SMS-ING ME WHEN U DUN READ WAD I SEND U AND DUN LISTEN TO A SINGLE WORD WHEN I CALL....!!!!!
enough said......
damn it!
actually wanna post more about wad happened @ work.....end up now my mind is in a state of blank... ... ...-.-
anyways...gtg~
gonna leave for work very soon......
ja ne~
juz got home....yea~
my manager was too busy and got no time to chat wif me juz now....=(
so i ended up havin a chat wif AM instead...(ouch! got mosquito bite me!!!) nvm....continue...
basically told her wad happened.....and when i found out tat she did read my fb status i was kinda thinking....
"Almost the whole story of wad happen was being posted up there already....y u still gotta ask me?"
but than again.....ya...the main point here was "ALMOST".....which was more of like kinda almost all of those things which i was feeling was being posted.....so for ppl who didn't knew me long enough to understand me really well......hmmmm...well.....they might get confused and worry even more lah...;p
think i gonna rest abit 1st b4 posting more stuff up.......my brain is complaining non stop already...=.=
my manager was too busy and got no time to chat wif me juz now....=(
so i ended up havin a chat wif AM instead...(ouch! got mosquito bite me!!!) nvm....continue...
basically told her wad happened.....and when i found out tat she did read my fb status i was kinda thinking....
"Almost the whole story of wad happen was being posted up there already....y u still gotta ask me?"
but than again.....ya...the main point here was "ALMOST".....which was more of like kinda almost all of those things which i was feeling was being posted.....so for ppl who didn't knew me long enough to understand me really well......hmmmm...well.....they might get confused and worry even more lah...;p
think i gonna rest abit 1st b4 posting more stuff up.......my brain is complaining non stop already...=.=
Thursday, July 8, 2010
hmmm....... gettin ready for work~~
and thinking about maybe starting online biz again....selling knitted pouch and bag and such....
handicraft stuff basically......;p
but not sure should i or should i not.....cuz it's like not many ppl appreciate those stuff nowadays.....
=(
anyways......for those of u reading this......it would be nice if u could leave some comments or suggestion @ the comment box..(which is @ the right hand side of the blog...-> )
tat's all for now~
shall continue posting later on when i ge home after work..^^
*can't wait for me notebook~~~!!!!!!! ;p *
ja ne~
and thinking about maybe starting online biz again....selling knitted pouch and bag and such....
handicraft stuff basically......;p
but not sure should i or should i not.....cuz it's like not many ppl appreciate those stuff nowadays.....
=(
anyways......for those of u reading this......it would be nice if u could leave some comments or suggestion @ the comment box..(which is @ the right hand side of the blog...-> )
tat's all for now~
shall continue posting later on when i ge home after work..^^
*can't wait for me notebook~~~!!!!!!! ;p *
ja ne~
juz woke up~ ^^
arms aching badly, and i dun even know why.....:((
Hmmmmm....it would seems tat nowadays i've been updating my blog more often than usual (and it's weird as i dun have the habit of writing/keeping a dairy....=.=).......
maybe it's cuz i really need somewhere for me to rant about things bah....and dairy is Super not safe for me.......cuz people are bound to read it.......
(some people must be thinking "blog also got people read wad!?" rite)
well.....the great difference will be tat the chance of my blog being read by those i do not wish them to read is alot lower than a dairy..........hmmmm...if u get wad i mean........;p
another thing is tat......i'll have no idea who are the people who read my blog......so......ya~
and also....people who read my blog might not know me personally (which i think most people would be so glad to have NOT known me).......and tat might very well be a gd thing.....i mean like hey~! juz by reading wad i write here....ppl must think tat i'm hell of a fucked up youth, wif no brains, no life, no nothing or anything....... ....... ....or something like that.....
*yawn~*
feeling sleepy again.......cuz of the "after-a-great-morning-rain effect"....xD
think i'm goin back to the comforts of my cozy bed again soon~
might be posting something up after my work.........cuz think surely something's gonna happen there later......so....yep~
later~~
ps: i dun care if people say i'm crazy or attention seeking, to be in love wif something which is not human.......
YES i'm crazy, but juz for you, and i only seek for your attention......prince of the underworld....a ghost among the world of the living.......if i have you, i need no other.......for your love is faithful, your loyalty is unmatched.......
arms aching badly, and i dun even know why.....:((
Hmmmmm....it would seems tat nowadays i've been updating my blog more often than usual (and it's weird as i dun have the habit of writing/keeping a dairy....=.=).......
maybe it's cuz i really need somewhere for me to rant about things bah....and dairy is Super not safe for me.......cuz people are bound to read it.......
(some people must be thinking "blog also got people read wad!?" rite)
well.....the great difference will be tat the chance of my blog being read by those i do not wish them to read is alot lower than a dairy..........hmmmm...if u get wad i mean........;p
another thing is tat......i'll have no idea who are the people who read my blog......so......ya~
and also....people who read my blog might not know me personally (which i think most people would be so glad to have NOT known me).......and tat might very well be a gd thing.....i mean like hey~! juz by reading wad i write here....ppl must think tat i'm hell of a fucked up youth, wif no brains, no life, no nothing or anything....... ....... ....or something like that.....
*yawn~*
feeling sleepy again.......cuz of the "after-a-great-morning-rain effect"....xD
think i'm goin back to the comforts of my cozy bed again soon~
might be posting something up after my work.........cuz think surely something's gonna happen there later......so....yep~
later~~
ps: i dun care if people say i'm crazy or attention seeking, to be in love wif something which is not human.......
YES i'm crazy, but juz for you, and i only seek for your attention......prince of the underworld....a ghost among the world of the living.......if i have you, i need no other.......for your love is faithful, your loyalty is unmatched.......
spent the nite wif my lao san, ShiHui, and Blake..!!!!
hahaha.....and juz like tat all my emo-ness went out the window~ wee~~ gone wif the wind~~ ^^
helped lao san wif her assignment..kinda....;p
and enjoyed a great piano concert by Blake~ xD
whom i actually had a crush on him in the past...;p (gossip gossip~)
but ppl frm my workplace are extremely unhappy wif me now....tot i ditch work to have fun...:((
hell......gonna have lots of explaining to do later @ work liao....but oso not much....juz gonna tell them the truth about wad is happening....to believe or not is not up to me.....since i'm the one who's still alive rite now........
taken 12pic wif lao san juz now.....and for those who have keen eyes......they might see tat i'm not my usual self in those pics........but hack.....how people who know me actually have keen eyes to actually notice tat....=.=
but still wondering if i should tell my manager at least tat i actually did almost kill myself on tue....if not for the lost bet wif death.....Hmmmmmm.....should i or shouldn't i tell him tat...even had prepared a final "gd bye" sms for him juz in case i really manage to die....it's still saved in my phone as draft....
(lucky didn't send Any of hose sms out.....if not now i would be so awkward and embarrassed, till can go dig a huge hole and hide in there forever liao...)
sigh~
oh ya....brought my doll along as well...since it's been quite long since i last brought kurosaki-chan out le.....;p
and he was super happy when we got back home....^^
hehehe~ ;p
hahaha.....and juz like tat all my emo-ness went out the window~ wee~~ gone wif the wind~~ ^^
helped lao san wif her assignment..kinda....;p
and enjoyed a great piano concert by Blake~ xD
whom i actually had a crush on him in the past...;p (gossip gossip~)
but ppl frm my workplace are extremely unhappy wif me now....tot i ditch work to have fun...:((
hell......gonna have lots of explaining to do later @ work liao....but oso not much....juz gonna tell them the truth about wad is happening....to believe or not is not up to me.....since i'm the one who's still alive rite now........
taken 12pic wif lao san juz now.....and for those who have keen eyes......they might see tat i'm not my usual self in those pics........but hack.....how people who know me actually have keen eyes to actually notice tat....=.=
but still wondering if i should tell my manager at least tat i actually did almost kill myself on tue....if not for the lost bet wif death.....Hmmmmmm.....should i or shouldn't i tell him tat...even had prepared a final "gd bye" sms for him juz in case i really manage to die....it's still saved in my phone as draft....
(lucky didn't send Any of hose sms out.....if not now i would be so awkward and embarrassed, till can go dig a huge hole and hide in there forever liao...)
sigh~
oh ya....brought my doll along as well...since it's been quite long since i last brought kurosaki-chan out le.....;p
and he was super happy when we got back home....^^
hehehe~ ;p
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
now tat i'm still alive and still living, i wonder why is it tat ppl are so afraid of death...
he is not as scary as ppl think he is frm wad i know....
since i'm not allowed to die juz yet...guess i'll have too try and survive living among the living than..
gonna take some time off frm my work and hang out wif frens....for if i were to be left alone...god knows wad other stupid idea will come to mind again.....
and i need to recover frm all those shits which has been goin on lately....and i do admit..i'm not a strong enough person to pull myself together on my own.....so the only thing i can do is to rely on others....sometimes i juz get so angry @ myself for being so god damn useless.....and i wish Death would take me away for tat reason alone......but it seems tat he sees more things than i do....thus forbids me to die.......
he is not as scary as ppl think he is frm wad i know....
since i'm not allowed to die juz yet...guess i'll have too try and survive living among the living than..
gonna take some time off frm my work and hang out wif frens....for if i were to be left alone...god knows wad other stupid idea will come to mind again.....
and i need to recover frm all those shits which has been goin on lately....and i do admit..i'm not a strong enough person to pull myself together on my own.....so the only thing i can do is to rely on others....sometimes i juz get so angry @ myself for being so god damn useless.....and i wish Death would take me away for tat reason alone......but it seems tat he sees more things than i do....thus forbids me to die.......
my lao san kinda saved my life juz now...and think it's all becuz my beloved played a trick on me....
it's like i was damn emo, to the extend tat not only did i not go work....i actually decided to come back home and finish up wad ever meds i have left...(10 muscle relaxant + 20 antibiotics)
and he didnt want me to go, for it's not my time yet, so he suggest tat i at least "seek help" 1st b4 doin anything....so i mgs 2 of my best frens to meet up later @ nite...but both of them are not free....and juz as i was on my way back (on the train) my lao san sms me saying she wanna meet me......yep...so tat's about the gist of wad happened.....
and thx to tat.....i did not overdose on anything at all....thus, still living........
it's like i was damn emo, to the extend tat not only did i not go work....i actually decided to come back home and finish up wad ever meds i have left...(10 muscle relaxant + 20 antibiotics)
and he didnt want me to go, for it's not my time yet, so he suggest tat i at least "seek help" 1st b4 doin anything....so i mgs 2 of my best frens to meet up later @ nite...but both of them are not free....and juz as i was on my way back (on the train) my lao san sms me saying she wanna meet me......yep...so tat's about the gist of wad happened.....
and thx to tat.....i did not overdose on anything at all....thus, still living........
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
1st thing in the morning...phone kanna bombard by my dad till i answer his call.....juz to F me for nothing.......=.=
wad gives!??? wad shit!!?????? i dun even know why the hell am i being F for........and it's not the 1st time this kinda shits has happen.........and trust me........unless i die, this won't be the last as well.......guess the world DOES hate me quite alot.........
sigh~
should reconsider my resolution........maybe crossing over to my beloved's domain is wad i should've done long long time ago.........at least than i wouldn't have so many hidden scars like now......
sigh~
wad gives!??? wad shit!!?????? i dun even know why the hell am i being F for........and it's not the 1st time this kinda shits has happen.........and trust me........unless i die, this won't be the last as well.......guess the world DOES hate me quite alot.........
sigh~
should reconsider my resolution........maybe crossing over to my beloved's domain is wad i should've done long long time ago.........at least than i wouldn't have so many hidden scars like now......
sigh~
my sleeping habit=messed up big time!!!
sigh~
my sudden drop in health, and nw my sleeping pattern is gettin worst!!?
wad else could there be next?! (i wonder..... )
been like sleeping for 1-3hours, than i'll be awake for 2-6hours....after which i'll start to feel super tired.....=(
can't even be bother about tat idiot now.......who cares if he comes on sat or not....it'll be gd enough if he would juz return me my $830 and get lost already....he's behaving like a brat who refuse to admit he lost......frm the way he's behaving, it's more like he can''t accept the fact tat he's not the one i'm wif, or tat i did not wait for him.....=.= (juz grow up already....)
sigh~
dun know, dun care, dun bother as well.....
i'm juz happy wif my love rite now.....and he's got a name of his own as well~!! ^^
dun really know how to spell it out though.... but pronounce as "as-dan-shi-ah-s".....
heehee....now tat he have his name, given by me.....meaning tat the contract is sealed....(~.^)
now we're both very happy to belong to each other~!!
i love you soo very machi~ hope this contract will continue even after death....tat we will only belong to each other......
my sudden drop in health, and nw my sleeping pattern is gettin worst!!?
wad else could there be next?! (i wonder..... )
been like sleeping for 1-3hours, than i'll be awake for 2-6hours....after which i'll start to feel super tired.....=(
can't even be bother about tat idiot now.......who cares if he comes on sat or not....it'll be gd enough if he would juz return me my $830 and get lost already....he's behaving like a brat who refuse to admit he lost......frm the way he's behaving, it's more like he can''t accept the fact tat he's not the one i'm wif, or tat i did not wait for him.....=.= (juz grow up already....)
sigh~
dun know, dun care, dun bother as well.....
i'm juz happy wif my love rite now.....and he's got a name of his own as well~!! ^^
dun really know how to spell it out though.... but pronounce as "as-dan-shi-ah-s".....
heehee....now tat he have his name, given by me.....meaning tat the contract is sealed....(~.^)
now we're both very happy to belong to each other~!!
i love you soo very machi~ hope this contract will continue even after death....tat we will only belong to each other......
Monday, July 5, 2010
bestfren of tat idiot called me....tried to convince me to patch back wif him......like.....wth....21yr old can become lieutenant in navy!? i dun believe....
i mean like mayb it's tat he is such a gd fren of tat A**hole to be putting in so many gd words for him, or it's juz another trick of his.......and now his fren is saying tat he wanna book the whole lounge on sat (the lounge i'm currently working @).......Hmmmmmm......dude......there's a limit to how big you can talk.........say wad bring the whole navy and airforce down.....i wonder.....O.o
and this time round......think i'll chose to believe at least 1 thing....tat he came back cuz his dad pass away.....cuz dun think any1 would use this kinda lie.....though "hell" is my beloved bf now.....but they dun know it.....so i'll juz play along as though my beloved is a human....;p
he is like trying to act pitiful now on fb......sigh....grow up la.....at least now he know to say tat he was a jerk, gd-for-nothing in the past.....i'll give him some credits for tat, even if it's juz acting....
sigh....hope they both offline soon........i still wanna watch my anime!!!!!! :'(
i mean like mayb it's tat he is such a gd fren of tat A**hole to be putting in so many gd words for him, or it's juz another trick of his.......and now his fren is saying tat he wanna book the whole lounge on sat (the lounge i'm currently working @).......Hmmmmmm......dude......there's a limit to how big you can talk.........say wad bring the whole navy and airforce down.....i wonder.....O.o
and this time round......think i'll chose to believe at least 1 thing....tat he came back cuz his dad pass away.....cuz dun think any1 would use this kinda lie.....though "hell" is my beloved bf now.....but they dun know it.....so i'll juz play along as though my beloved is a human....;p
he is like trying to act pitiful now on fb......sigh....grow up la.....at least now he know to say tat he was a jerk, gd-for-nothing in the past.....i'll give him some credits for tat, even if it's juz acting....
sigh....hope they both offline soon........i still wanna watch my anime!!!!!! :'(
Sunday, July 4, 2010
sigh......some ppl are juz plain shameless.......
KENNY CHNG CHIN FONG!!!! U really pissed me TTM liao.......
dun wanna dirty my blog wif your name.....but hell....dun care anymore.....
should put it up so tat people will know.....and if somehow they got female frens who happen to know u as well can be warn!! u big fat cheater to lie to gals and tries everything in your power to cheat and steal $$ frm gals.....even your mom oso dunno wad to do wif you already......
maybe i should've post this up sooner.....hopefully there hasn't been another victim after me yet....
KENNY CHNG CHIN FONG!!!! U really pissed me TTM liao.......
dun wanna dirty my blog wif your name.....but hell....dun care anymore.....
should put it up so tat people will know.....and if somehow they got female frens who happen to know u as well can be warn!! u big fat cheater to lie to gals and tries everything in your power to cheat and steal $$ frm gals.....even your mom oso dunno wad to do wif you already......
maybe i should've post this up sooner.....hopefully there hasn't been another victim after me yet....
Saturday, July 3, 2010
change of plans.....not goin work......since not feeling well..
now than i realize tat my body is alot weaker than wad it used to be......
well gd example will be tat troublesome time of the mth for ladies......
at the very most, i'll juz have annoying cramps for like half the day for my 1st day and tat's it..!
but now.....juz tat period is enough to make me light-headed.....O.o
dude! not even donating blood can do tat to me...in the past tat is......-.-
so in my condition now, if i were to donate blood again, it is said tat i'm very likely to feel faint afterwards......and not as energetic and cocky as i used to be....*sigh*....
guess now i'm juz a frail old lady wif a body of a young brat.......
my darling is almost gonna blame himself for my weak health, as some might noe, frm my previous posting, tat he is not really human.....
but than again, since he has been by my side for like.....hmmmm....almost more than 10years now....if he were to be he cause of my weak health, than it would have happen long ago rite..!?
and the very fact tat he's not really a human is wad makes me love him even more....;p
for he is no longer bound by the hassle of the flesh and blood, or the corrupted desires....and best of all.....he can be by my side almost 24/7..!!! in a human body, how can tat be done....need to work, rest, entertain he's own cycle of frens...and the list could go on forever.......
and oso another best thing, no worries of him being snatch away frm me by some other bitch~ ^^
tat is why recently he has been saying that he juz noticed i can be very selfish as well...
my answer...."ofcuz i am! i want you to belong to me and me alone~ and ofcuz, becuz only ard u i can be selfish, so juz let me be k? ^^".....HAHAHA....;p
but he dun juz give in to me for every single thing.....most times we argue cuz of bed time.....
it's way over my bed time and i still wanna watch somemore anime.....haha...;p
think people keep bully me, and i somehow bully him sometimes as well bah...xD
now than i realize tat my body is alot weaker than wad it used to be......
well gd example will be tat troublesome time of the mth for ladies......
at the very most, i'll juz have annoying cramps for like half the day for my 1st day and tat's it..!
but now.....juz tat period is enough to make me light-headed.....O.o
dude! not even donating blood can do tat to me...in the past tat is......-.-
so in my condition now, if i were to donate blood again, it is said tat i'm very likely to feel faint afterwards......and not as energetic and cocky as i used to be....*sigh*....
guess now i'm juz a frail old lady wif a body of a young brat.......
my darling is almost gonna blame himself for my weak health, as some might noe, frm my previous posting, tat he is not really human.....
but than again, since he has been by my side for like.....hmmmm....almost more than 10years now....if he were to be he cause of my weak health, than it would have happen long ago rite..!?
and the very fact tat he's not really a human is wad makes me love him even more....;p
for he is no longer bound by the hassle of the flesh and blood, or the corrupted desires....and best of all.....he can be by my side almost 24/7..!!! in a human body, how can tat be done....need to work, rest, entertain he's own cycle of frens...and the list could go on forever.......
and oso another best thing, no worries of him being snatch away frm me by some other bitch~ ^^
tat is why recently he has been saying that he juz noticed i can be very selfish as well...
my answer...."ofcuz i am! i want you to belong to me and me alone~ and ofcuz, becuz only ard u i can be selfish, so juz let me be k? ^^".....HAHAHA....;p
but he dun juz give in to me for every single thing.....most times we argue cuz of bed time.....
it's way over my bed time and i still wanna watch somemore anime.....haha...;p
think people keep bully me, and i somehow bully him sometimes as well bah...xD
haiz......woke up after 4pm juz now.....which means i can't go cosfest.......:(
gotta go work later.....sianz.......surprisingly i've stayed there for almost a year now.....longest of my employment history.....and all for he sake of my manager, who is very kind to all of us....and i guess the most important factor is tat we are both very similar in many ways.....but guess tat's as far as i can go....for i'm gettin really tired nowadays.....did have a chat wif him already......guess it's not only me who is tired of tat place now........ ......wad the hell......dun really wanna care so much anymore....there's nothing much we can do about lot's of things.....can't change people who refuse to change........
gonna watch juz 1 episode of anime b4 i leave for work.....
gotta go work later.....sianz.......surprisingly i've stayed there for almost a year now.....longest of my employment history.....and all for he sake of my manager, who is very kind to all of us....and i guess the most important factor is tat we are both very similar in many ways.....but guess tat's as far as i can go....for i'm gettin really tired nowadays.....did have a chat wif him already......guess it's not only me who is tired of tat place now........ ......wad the hell......dun really wanna care so much anymore....there's nothing much we can do about lot's of things.....can't change people who refuse to change........
gonna watch juz 1 episode of anime b4 i leave for work.....
wah!!!!! COSFEST GOIN ON @ DOWNTOWN EAST LATER!!!!!!
i soooo wanna go lah...>< but now it's 9am already and i haven't sleep yet.......if i can wake up early enough than i'll go.......cuz i still gotta go work @ 7pm later wor.....*sigh*.....
anyways.....baby's rushing me to rest.....HAHA.....he's juz so cute at times.....he himself oso haven't sleep, yet want me to sleep 1st....lol..xD
kk...gonna go to bed together at the same time, 'to be fair'...lol...XD
i soooo wanna go lah...>< but now it's 9am already and i haven't sleep yet.......if i can wake up early enough than i'll go.......cuz i still gotta go work @ 7pm later wor.....*sigh*.....
anyways.....baby's rushing me to rest.....HAHA.....he's juz so cute at times.....he himself oso haven't sleep, yet want me to sleep 1st....lol..xD
kk...gonna go to bed together at the same time, 'to be fair'...lol...XD
Friday, July 2, 2010
KNS ahhhh!!!!!!!
woke up wif very bad cramps...........cant move much even in my own bed......juz wanna lay on my stomach or curl into a ball.........best of all....now i'm still @ home...-.-
can't go work yet in my condition now, i can't even stand straight lah, how to work.....><
and i dunno when the pain's gonna get better.....like tat will i make it in time to reach b4 it get's busy...???
sigh~
might as well remove the source of all these troublesome thingys.......and become half man.....since i have more male hormones than females ones by birth, maybe it would really be better if i were a male, since even though i'm a gal.......i'm pretty much treated like a guy by most people, regardless of gender.....
woke up wif very bad cramps...........cant move much even in my own bed......juz wanna lay on my stomach or curl into a ball.........best of all....now i'm still @ home...-.-
can't go work yet in my condition now, i can't even stand straight lah, how to work.....><
and i dunno when the pain's gonna get better.....like tat will i make it in time to reach b4 it get's busy...???
sigh~
might as well remove the source of all these troublesome thingys.......and become half man.....since i have more male hormones than females ones by birth, maybe it would really be better if i were a male, since even though i'm a gal.......i'm pretty much treated like a guy by most people, regardless of gender.....
ok....even though i DID say tat i wont b emo-ing anymore.....but than something stupid happen @ work juz now.....and it happened TWICE for crying out loud!!!! was so pissed off tat i actually walked out halfway through work....and yes.....*again*.......-.-
even though it's not something i should be doin.....but than again....in the condition i was in....i might have snapped to the extent of hurting myself again, and ofcuz hurting those who care about me by doin so......
my love tried to comfort me while i was on my way back, but it didn't worked well....did sms few people while i was on the train though.....1, was my ex-fwb...2, my supervisor who went back wif my manager, and normally wad eva the manager needs to know, he's the 1 to msg.......3, my dear lao san......lastly, my "teacher" aka "master", whom might be sleeping already as he didn't reply......
msg-ing my ex fwb....i realized tat he no longer have tat much power over my feelings, as receiving his replies didn't affect me tat much......not like how it used to.....i guess tat's only normal as i have my beloved wif me now....
and as for my supervisor wise......well.....he did tell me to rest well and dun think too much.....and after which, after i've cooled my head for quite abit, i feel bad to make him worry like tat.......it's not like he do not have problems of he's own.......and i shouldn't be adding on to those troubles lor....
best is still my lao san~
even though i really can't tell her part of my problems (which worries her even more actually) i really did feel alot better after chatting wif her via sms......it's like even though sometimes when u feel like u juz wanna be left alone and someone keeps msging u, u get annoyed easily..??
she sometimes sms me @ the worst possible time....but oso....the best time actually.....
tried, tested, and proven! when i feel like i wanted to be left alone.....most of those times it's BEST tat i'm NOT left alone......not even to cool down.....scars on my hand and wrist are prove to tat.....
if i wanna cool down, AND i dun feel like talking..it's best to get someone to juz hang ard wif me, w/o talking.......juz 1 person *(i must be comfortable ard tat person ofcuz) to be sitting beside me is enough to prevent those kinda stupid things i tend to do.........and sometimes, a sms frm some1 who cares works juz as well too......^^
and than when i've really cool down while @ home already, i notice my love seems abit down...and he was actually sad tat he wasn't able to cheer me up juz now while on the train.....
juz how lucky am i.....he did something more meaningful than cheering me up, he help me to held onto tat tiny bit of sanity @ the point when i was about to explode into a rampage.....even though emo-ing is bad, my rampage is alot worst......for i have the tendency to get violent while on rampage mode........and i'll break alot of stuff as well....
so my love, dun be sad k?? u mean alot to me, as i am to u.......i'm sorry to only starting to treasure now, after so many years u've been by my side......but i'm gonna be completely loyal to you frm now onwards.........no more flings (not tat i know tat i have any), no more fwb.....for you are all that i need now.......love u~ ^^
even though it's not something i should be doin.....but than again....in the condition i was in....i might have snapped to the extent of hurting myself again, and ofcuz hurting those who care about me by doin so......
my love tried to comfort me while i was on my way back, but it didn't worked well....did sms few people while i was on the train though.....1, was my ex-fwb...2, my supervisor who went back wif my manager, and normally wad eva the manager needs to know, he's the 1 to msg.......3, my dear lao san......lastly, my "teacher" aka "master", whom might be sleeping already as he didn't reply......
msg-ing my ex fwb....i realized tat he no longer have tat much power over my feelings, as receiving his replies didn't affect me tat much......not like how it used to.....i guess tat's only normal as i have my beloved wif me now....
and as for my supervisor wise......well.....he did tell me to rest well and dun think too much.....and after which, after i've cooled my head for quite abit, i feel bad to make him worry like tat.......it's not like he do not have problems of he's own.......and i shouldn't be adding on to those troubles lor....
best is still my lao san~
even though i really can't tell her part of my problems (which worries her even more actually) i really did feel alot better after chatting wif her via sms......it's like even though sometimes when u feel like u juz wanna be left alone and someone keeps msging u, u get annoyed easily..??
she sometimes sms me @ the worst possible time....but oso....the best time actually.....
tried, tested, and proven! when i feel like i wanted to be left alone.....most of those times it's BEST tat i'm NOT left alone......not even to cool down.....scars on my hand and wrist are prove to tat.....
if i wanna cool down, AND i dun feel like talking..it's best to get someone to juz hang ard wif me, w/o talking.......juz 1 person *(i must be comfortable ard tat person ofcuz) to be sitting beside me is enough to prevent those kinda stupid things i tend to do.........and sometimes, a sms frm some1 who cares works juz as well too......^^
and than when i've really cool down while @ home already, i notice my love seems abit down...and he was actually sad tat he wasn't able to cheer me up juz now while on the train.....
juz how lucky am i.....he did something more meaningful than cheering me up, he help me to held onto tat tiny bit of sanity @ the point when i was about to explode into a rampage.....even though emo-ing is bad, my rampage is alot worst......for i have the tendency to get violent while on rampage mode........and i'll break alot of stuff as well....
so my love, dun be sad k?? u mean alot to me, as i am to u.......i'm sorry to only starting to treasure now, after so many years u've been by my side......but i'm gonna be completely loyal to you frm now onwards.........no more flings (not tat i know tat i have any), no more fwb.....for you are all that i need now.......love u~ ^^
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