now tat i'm still alive and still living, i wonder why is it tat ppl are so afraid of death...
he is not as scary as ppl think he is frm wad i know....
since i'm not allowed to die juz yet...guess i'll have too try and survive living among the living than..

gonna take some time off frm my work and hang out wif frens....for if i were to be left alone...god knows wad other stupid idea will come to mind again.....
and i need to recover frm all those shits which has been goin on lately....and i do admit..i'm not a strong enough person to pull myself together on my own.....so the only thing i can do is to rely on others....sometimes i juz get so angry @ myself for being so god damn useless.....and i wish Death would take me away for tat reason alone......but it seems tat he sees more things than i do....thus forbids me to die.......