wee~~~
juz now went watch movie wif Blake and his group of frens.....total head count = 17 people~!!!!!
O.o

it's the 1st time for me to be hanging out wif such a big group....and surprisingly....it was loads of fun~!!!! ^^
and managed to make few new frens as well...though only got 1 of their number.....but hey....there's still next time......cuz think i'm most likely being fired from my job already......might have been better tat way anyways.... ......
it's like i used to enjoy working there alot, and was really happy there.....
and i wonder when did it all became past tense..........wonder wad went wrong........maybe it was really my fault all along.........wasn't gd enough for them........wasn't worthy enough to be working along side wif them from the very beginning......tat's y it has lead to this now.......
sigh~
it might be for the best for them to really hate me rite now.....for tat's how things were in the very beginning......
and there i was....stupid enough to actually plan tat i wanna celebrate my bday this year wif them.......forget it......all those plans.....juz forget everything....for even if i manage to stay there till my bday.....no one would fucking care anyways.......for someone unworthy and useless.....who would even bother to spend their time for my bday.......which means absolutely NOTHING or wad-so-ever.......

so now basically not only do i have to try to recover asap, i also have to start looking for new job....NO MORE NITELIFE!!!!!!
cannot strain my health anymore........and i dun wanna let people make my feel like i'm some worthless shit anymore.......
sigh.........Sigh...........

think i goin back to bed soon.......head's kinda spinning already........
ja ne~