......
pool table fell on the back of my head earlier on....
and juz few sec ago....it landed on my pinky toe!!!!!

*pain pain*

nothing is goin rite.....everything's in a mess....
but it's ok.....i'll manage somehow....as i always do....
guess tat's y it's hard to find a living human guy who will like me, for the rite reasons...
(and not cuz they're despo, or think i can make lotsa babies, or think i'll be great in bed....these are the reasons i've been getting so far..-.-)

sigh.....i cannot afford to be weak.......not ever again.....
for no matter wad happens...i only have myself to depend on.....
no one's gonna ever step up if i'm in serious need of help........and i do mean NOONE!!
not my family, not my frens..........and surely no so-called 'loved ones' to be there when i'm in trouble....

emo!?
me???

hell yea....so wad if i'm freaking emo or freaking mad.....
tat's juz me, i'm as raw as a sashimi gets....